Ending is the new beginning.

Someday i'll marry you.

2011-08-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

JUST WANNA SAY THAT MY BOYF IS SO GODDAMN CUTE ;)
HAPPY 19 MONTHS BABY <3
19.19 HEHEHE

Stay strong lovely!

2011-08-13T00:39:00.001+08:00

Oh, and i just checked out an old friend's blog. She seems to be in some relationship turmoil. Hasn't been talking to her for quite a while and we've all been communicating through Tumblr. I wonder if she's okay already. :3 I don't dare to text her just in case i remind her of her pain. Eeek. Texted Marj and hope she'll think of something good. Marj's a genius who doesn't want to use her brain. Tsk.

And girl, if you're looking at this and you know who you are, I hope you're okay. :)

Greetings

2011-08-13T00:30:00.002+08:00

I can't believe how long it is since i last posted. *sweep dust off the racks* Been such a potterhead recently and am neglecting my work so much. Reread some chapters of Harry Potter and Tumblr so damn much. Yesterday was a huge wake-up call for me when my comm skills (something like GP)'s lecturer told us we didn't do so well for our project. We really did our best for the project(s). Sigh, life's a tough crowd I guess. I've never worked so hard in any assignments in my life. Who said poly is a breeze? Utter rubbish. I'm literally sleeping at 3am everyday. I have good time management too, it's just that there's too many things to handle. IG's proposal is so demanding, so is our lecturers.

*huge sigh*

I pity siewting who's in TP's dance ensemble. They have practice on a daily basis. And no, I'm not slacking. I'm having comm skills exam tomorrow which explains why I'm posting now :) But it seems like I don't have much on my mind to clear. I always types a lot when I'm troubled. From Tumblr: I write best when I'm emotional. Hope I'll have a quarrel with babyboyy tonight so I'm in a bad mood tomorrow morning. Which will hopefully translates to me doing well for the exam? Hehehe *touch wood furiously*

Somehow blogging lifted something off my chest. I don't know what it is and am too classy to go think about it. Mehhh.

If you're really such a huge fan of mine, check out:

My Tumblr

Everyday I'm Tumblring.

Guess a movie.

2011-06-12T02:31:00.000+08:00

I miss the cute Harry Potter and the cute Hermoine and the cute Ron.

You're like steak and boiled potatoes ;)

2011-06-03T16:28:00.000+08:00

I want steak.
I want steak I want steak I want steak.
I want boiled potatoes w sour cream.
I want chocolate and vanilla Ben and Jerry's.
I want.

你的眼里只有钱！

2011-05-31T21:19:00.000+08:00

BET YOU CAN'T FIND IT!!!!!

Tsk tsk! 为了钱而迷失自己，真可悲~~

DEMI, WHY DO YOU SMILE LIKE THAT!??!?!?!

2011-05-30T01:34:00.002+08:00

sorry, but i don't like Lovato. LOL.

Eh! I think i like my previous font better! Anyone?

2011-05-28T00:36:00.001+08:00

I fell on the last step of the stairway, it grazed my heart. :(

2011-05-28T00:23:00.003+08:00

I'm so sad now!!

I'm sorry but this is just to rant for my HTMIG thingy so you can always skip it if you don't wish to see me complaining.

Ahhhhhh this is so whatthefreakkmanxzsohmytiannn i don't know whats with me and why i'm so depressed just 'cos I wouldn't get into Htmig ;(

k for background information,

HTM is my course and IG is interest group, means like a small council for my course and such and they're recruiting freshmen for htmig... I didn't mind this much at first and initially i thought i didn't even passed the first round and I wasn't even affected, okay maybe i was for 20secs but i recovered way before you can say htmig. At first i went with the mindset of 'if they choose me then good if don't then anyth lor' but today i'm like super nervous and worried that i won't fare well for the interview. And today is considered well, theoretically, the third interview and if we pass the third one we are officially the sub-comms of htmig but i really did very badly for my interview.

I was blabbering shits and craps and when i look at the seniors' faces i can totally see that they're annoyed at my answers. Worst of all, I was the last to be interviewed in like the 'chosen' 50 plus people. They're only accepting 12. They were like, since you are the last, you should give us something to make an impact on, i don't want to hear any repeated one 'cos we've been hearing the same answers over and over again for the past 50 people and i was like, omg i suay okay i'm the last whatthesheetxzs!

Overall I know I just couldn't make it and problem is i really don't know why i'm so affected! Actually the experience was extremely traumatic, imagine 14 people sitting in a row in front of you and you are either alone/ with only one more partner and you'll have to answer all their questions shot at you.

And this particular senior was really nice 'cos everyone else was giving the strict face but she sometimes smiled at me which was so comforting, like a lil warm in the freezing atmosphere y'know. And i just texted her to thank her for her smile but after I send out i realised they'd think like i'm just trying to suck up since I didn't do well for the interview. Like pull strings but I swear i wasn't trying to suck up can I really think that she is awfully nice so i just wanted to let her know i appreciate it a lot! She didn't replied omg she must be thinking what a suck up I am! Omg, but she's real nice and all so even if she misunderstand me I'll forgive her hahahah!

Okay I feel so much better now after letting out all my thoughts.

Blogs do help. Hehehehehe

Thank you baby, thank you Eleanor, thank you Siewting, HweeBeng and thank you blogger, wouldn't have made it past w/o anyone of you.

ps/ if you've noticed, i changed my word font! How is this font compared to the previous one? :{D

7even!

2011-05-25T02:38:00.000+08:00

How can anyone not cry to this? I watched 3 times on separate days and cried all 3 times. And its those kindda hysterical cry y'know omg fanfan.
you won't regret, WATCH IT!

so damn sweet omg i can't stand it :')

Thats how I want my wedding to be like. With xiao S crying all over heheheh no lur. Omg so sweet ttm. *u*

2011-05-15T17:13:00.002+08:00

FUCK

7th May, 2011.

2011-05-09T01:39:00.000+08:00

“我願意一生愛妳、照顧妳、保護妳...在你傷心難過時、體諒妳、安慰妳...在妳生病痛苦時、陪伴妳、扶侍妳...在妳成功得意、肯定妳、提醒妳...在妳失敗挫折時、支持妳、鼓勵妳.....讓我照顧妳,我真的好愛妳”

Fan fan and hei ren are finally married. MY FAN FAN IS NO LONGER SINGLE SIGH. ;(

They're so sweet lur like what 10 years already (:
*Hinthint* if my boyf don't propose to me by the tenth year I don't want him uh! HAHAH!

Just kiddin'

Dear fanfan and husband, congrats on the new marriage and wish you eternal bliss!! May you both love each other forever :)

7th May is so significant! Got GE and my dear fanfan got married. <3

if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can :)

2011-05-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

SO SUPER SWEET RIGHT

Never leave me pining for 'ya ;)

2011-05-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

I SWEAR ON MY LIFE I LOVE IT.

WOOOOOO ~

I really don't mean to complain.

2011-05-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

Feeling so shitzxs right now. Ugh.

idk maybe it's me, but wth lur.

Hate pms and stress. Turn lovely friends into bitches.

why is everyone doing this to me? !*@^#!@#^

Her prince came, a real one at that.

2011-05-04T21:18:00.001+08:00

superr sweeet :)

Its a bit late but oh wells.

Did any of you know Prince Will invited 4 ex-es to the Royal Wedding?? And Kate Middleton invited 2 ex-es. I have no idea about this until my comm skills lecturer told us today. Yes, it caused quite a bit of commotion. I can't figure out why would anyone wanna do that?!

I think i'll kill my fiance if he wants to invite his ex(s) to our wedding. I'm not that generous haha. Anyway if everything goes smoothly my fiance shouldn't have an ex. I'm my boyf's first. WAHAHHAHAA.

Okay I'm being annoying. Just like to share w you people about it! Idk how Kate Middleton (omg she is super hot) survived it cannnn. I respect her.

And just wondering, are princes allowed to get divorce?

Ladies know how to play the game.

2011-05-04T20:43:00.000+08:00

When the sun rises,

if you just wanna be yourself ,
get a cigarette box and a rosebullet.
Then, you'll have harmony for peace for
this summer. Wulabaha.

I ate a honghongstrawberry To spice my life. Kthxbye

Written by felicia lee, this is so awesome I just have to acknowledge you twice!
Idk if i should explain the following above... Hmmm.

Alright lur *i'm so kind* actually it's sorta some clues to blogs from her loves. (including me, duh)

hahahah this it's sooooo cute!

proves that she is super slack in engineering school! :(

Anyways, you know someone told me your course is supposed to be in business school one, is cause the fac you guys need to use are in engineering school. Haiya, if not we can all be yellow team tgt! :(

Looking forward to May!

2011-05-04T03:33:00.002+08:00

Bye April, Hello May! :)

It feels like I've just passed April and there comes May!

Fast, I know.

So what have I done in May, hmmmm. let's see.

1) I've learnt that water is very important. I now start my day with a cup of water and brings a bottle of water to school everyday, no matter how inhumanly heavy my bag is.

GIRLS, Water is very good for skin! Drink more water! Haha!

2) I've learnt to rub my contact lens for at least 10 secs everytime I take it off. I never do that! Okay maybe I rubbed but I only rub for like 2 secs or so, for people wearing contacts, rubbing away deposits in your lens is very important. Ever felt like your monthly lens feel uncomfortable towards the end of the month? Must be you never rub your lens!

3) Am officially a student of Temasek Poly. :D Got my new class, new timetable, new friends. As the saying goes, make new friends but keep the old, one is silver, the other gold! :)

3) Forgotten a pri sch close friend's birthday. :(

4) Pranked Felicia, Swy and half of Marj on April's fool's!

5) Ended up ever sweeter w my beau. ♥ btw, no we didn't break up (?!??!) and I wasn't sad or anyth! Seriously! Someone asked one of my friends if me and xujie are okay 'cos i sounded very sad on blog. Thank you for your concern btw! But we're perfectly fine hahaha I think we're the sweetest couple ever ;) *omg sorry for boasting* and did I sounded sad? Omg.

6) Told everyone in class I'm attached.

7) Had embarrassing moments in school.

8) Slept at an average of 2am everyday. *Look at the time now if you don't believe me.

9) Went Daiso w Elebestf and badmintion w sisters. (where we all did stupid things)

10) Got my retainers, FINALLY.

11) Used almost 40pcs of polaroid!
12) Watched Rio *omgsogoddamnnice* and A Chinese Ghost Story

13) Collected my TP Student Matriculation card and Tertiary Student Card (Ez-link)

14) Got broke because of bus fares

15) Went down to Dhoby Ghaut SPOTLIGHT to help wernching buy someth for her art. I was so lazy to go out initially and in the end went all the way to dhoby ghaut. IKR I'm such a nice friend. TQ to ys, wy & pq for accompanied me. *guilty ttm*

16) Missed Adilahgurl like crazyyyyy idk why it's like this sudden thing.

That's my April! I know, only 16 things? No there's so much more I wanted to add but I didn't want to bore you guys. Anw, I hasn't been blogging much towards the end of April and I don't think I will blog too much in May too. Every time I go on study dates w babyyy I'll try to use my ipad to blog after he started concentrating on his work but being the clever boyf like he always is, he'll notice that I'm not doing my work in only like, 5mins and would press me to finish my work! So cute right! Hehehehehehe! Furthermore I end school quite late and after homework I'll be knocked out in bed already. So don't be bothered to check back often, unless you're a big fan. HAHAHAHA.

Okay lur maybe I'll blog often lur 'cos I like blogging. Who knows, right.

Anws, anyone heard the bell on 12pm on 1st May? :(
I didn't y'know! It was such a significant thing for me and Novy. Idk if it's like a Tampines thing but if I didn't remember wrongly I rmb other places have it too. There'll be this bell tune ringing at exactly 12pm on the 1st of every month. If you hasn't noticed before, try pausing during work on 1st June next month! :)

It's really meaningful and heartwarming.

Can't believe its May already, I spend only half a month in 2011 studying. Hahahah other 4 and 1/2 months were spend lazing around! Pig. So, cheers to May, and may everyone single find true love in this flowery month! ^^v

Marital Bliss!

2011-05-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

Cheers to Prince William and her royal highness Kate Middleton, hehehe!

May they have a marriage filled with love and joy ^^v

My lecturer for RHT can't stop talking about it yesterday during the 2hr lecture. Totally convinced us how much she wanted to attend the wedding. She never gets bored of talking about the 'Royal Wedding' at 6pm. I swear.

Google hauls!

2011-04-26T00:12:00.000+08:00

Omg look what I've found!
I was being spontaneous and keyed in PRSSCO into google 'cos I was googling someone for his pri5 photo hehehe. *Sadly, to no avail* :(

But this surprised me! Hahhhaha had a good laugh over it!

See the first and second picture is Felicia's Zi-lian photo hahahahaha and the third is wernching's photo from like 4 years ago or someth and there's so many phtos of yanpeng and peiyun and the 爱 was what wernching drew on my hand 2 years ago! That's not my hand though. LOL.

And this.

The first picture is the most unglam picture of wenyi, EVER. Then below wy's picture, idk if it's visible, it's like a picture of taiwan trip. With 5 of us (w/o wenyi) and hmmm wernching and mr kelvin chee and HMMMM, there's XX too! Hahahhahahahahah! She's leaning on felicia i think! Not that I have any prejudice against her or anyth but it's just plain funny I wanna see marj's reaction when she sees that photo! Then there's a picture of yishing's sister doing this mega-unglam face and there's the poster of the crew of BOF. I wonder how is that tagged PRSSCO. Conclusion, so funny la aiyo!

And there's still this!

Hahahha anothr of wenyi's unglam pic and there's a pic of Jaslyn. I rmb it's her blog icon or someth. And a very funny picture of my senior vionna holding two chicken wings!

Omg had such a fit laughing over all my 'hauls' for yesterday!

Gorgeous ladies manxzs! :D

HAPPY SEVENTEEN GIRAFFE (L)

2011-04-25T01:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED TO MY BABYGURLLLLL! (SERIOUSLY I FEEL LIKE I'M XUJIE CALLING MYSELF HAHAHA)
NEVER HAD ANY GIRLFRIEND MADE ME WANNA KISS HER TTM. Oops I'm not halal HAHHA.
AND I'VE ALWAYS FEEL LIKE IMMA LES W ADILAHBBABEEHYY AROUND.
I love you sooooooo much giraffe you're 17 omg!
So kind and lovely and cute and pretty where would you find any other girl who stays at home to look after her babyniece when her family goes out to play?
Okay maybe except for Eleanor.
Seeee! I love kind girls HAHHAHAHA.
This photo don't do justice to her she's so pweeetyyy anyone wanna date her?!!
Awhhh she tweeted about me on her bdae in her twitter somemore! So sweeet.
Kbyetoomanyromance.

K this really makes me wanna showoff my skin a year ago. No pimples, even skin tone, no bigbigbigbig pores, no bumps on face. I miss my complexion. It's the same to everyone else I know. (except Felicia-freak who has awesome skin even though she wash her face w clear water. MUST BE A LYING *self-comfort)
'O'levels does hell to everyone! I can't imagine Wy and yishing's face after their 'A's.

I hate how xujie's face stays so smooth and nice even though he's under so much stress. Unfair ttm. Such good brains too. Hate HCI people who looks hot.

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I'm so flustered! (okay not as before orientation)

School starts officially, TOMMORROW.

I'm not even half ready!! My room is 1/10 packed. Its better than nothing right? I just wiped all the marker marks and polish staints off my table! It's sparkling white now it hurts my eyes ^^

Love it! Looks so new!

Things to do (unchecked):
Finish painting my room (masking tapes are still there omg)
Put in real curtains and take off stand-in towels.
Pack my drawer, closet, cabinet (99% unchecked and gives me headaches)
Finish my scarf
Keep old stuffs away
Organise my pictures folder

Things to do (checked):
packed my table

and one drawer

HOW FAIL AM I WENYI I NEED YOU.

HHHAHHAH makes me laugh when I look back and see wy's picture while she's packing for me, like 3 years ago? Room was messy like hell, as usual.

Okay regarding the timetable, I don't like it! :(
My school ends at 6pm on most days although it starts as late as 2pm on monday and tues.

Goodbye Monday-blues! ^^

Say hi to wed blues.

I head people in SP ends at noon everyday is that true?? *Stabs SP people*
It really comforts me to know that my bus ride to school only is 5mins long. Yes, I timed it.

HAHHAHA to all those who lives in Tampines yet chose NP/NYP/RP. Have fun travelling 3 hours (to and fro) everyday! Omg i'm so bad but so glad I went in TP instead! But still, N88, I miss you! :(

And people in my class are calling me cheena 'cos they heard I chose N88 as my first choice.
What's wrong w loving chinese language! Grr.

Just in case you needa know, N88 is Chinese Media and Mass Communication in NP.

PS/ I WANT SHOPPING :(

I have few bucks left in my wallet already but I itch at the thought of buying things. Heehehe my mum says i have 购物狂. I admit.

Kbaipeople having dental appt tmr to collect my new retainers! I don't like :( There's gonna be a metal line thingy on my upper teeth from tmr onwards. Fortunately nice dentist gave me the translucent plastic on my lower teeth :)

Like finally, retainers. After a year them being left in the corners.

And more each passing day.

2011-04-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

The best relationship is when you two can act like lovers and best friends. It’s when you have more playful moments than serious moments. It’s when you can joke around, let each other have piggy backs, have unexpected hugs and random kisses. It’s when you two give each other that specific stare and just smile. It’s when you’ll rather stay in to watch movies, eat junk food and cuddle, than go out all the time. It’s when you’ll stay up all night just to settle your arguments and problems. It’s when you can completely act yourself and they can still love you for who you are.

I promise we'll stay like that ♥

She's climbs into the claw machine!

2011-04-20T00:53:00.000+08:00

It's so good I have to share it!

Guess it's heaven on earth for that girl huh.

Oh my god it's tomorrow.

2011-04-20T00:05:00.000+08:00

OMG FIRST DAY OF ORIENTATION TOMORROW, SO GLAD THAT I'M IN BUSINESS SCHOOL AND ORIENTATION IS ONLY 2 DAYS.

I'm getting antsy about orientation and meeting new classmates who'll stick through projects and etc. w me for 3 years, sigh.

I don't like ice-breaking nor introducing myself! Just have to get through tomorrow.

Good luck to myself!

So not prepared for school yet, table's messy, drawer's messy, room's messy and unpainted, curtains not up yet, things not bought yet. Sigh, I'm gonna have to finish all of that by this weekend!
Next Monday marks the end of my epic 6-month-long holiday!

It's a black mesh baby.

2011-04-19T02:34:00.001+08:00

Anyone tried this yet?

Looks quite cool I'll love wanna try it!
Have a voucher now that I can buy OPI polishes at $9 each, should I??
*imagine Eleanor shouting NONONONONO again*
Hais, but shipping is $3. Anyone interested?

Like cheese and sprinklers!

2011-04-18T02:51:00.000+08:00

HAD A GREAT SUNDAY FEELING SO LOVED ^^ ♥

*apart from the pressing messages trying to spoil my date*

(Rio is a must-watch! :D)

Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew 'ya.

2011-04-18T02:34:00.000+08:00

So touched when I see this! *insert huge grin*

Miss kuan made cupcakes for everyone, w names on every single member of PRSSCO 2011' and what you see above for alumni members who are lucky enough to go back during sat.
Really wanna give miss kuan a big hug! Miss Ho's involved too I know but hahahaha I'm so used to her being a 'loose-wire' teacher I don't feel too much about it. Seems like her to do cupcakes for everyone and take a picture of her cupcake with 'Ms Ho' on it and tag herself on FB. LOL. That's what she said. And i'm only implying that she's a really nice person by nature. *hmmmmm*

Here's a few more.

I WANT THE ONE CAPTIONED MS DING! LOL.

A handful of extra cupcakes for lucky/loyal alumni. Ps/ I'm just the lucky few.

SO MUCH WORK! *Pat on the back*

Went back to PRSSCO's practice at TECC on Sat, 16th Apr 2011.

It was deja vu.
From the 291 bustop to the pavement that leads to the traffic light crossing over to the black-tar-ground carpark outside TECC's Macdonald, the aroma of golden fries wafting out to the stairs that lead up to our stage, the bright orange stage light that glared from above, to the stick that Ding lao shi held in her hand, her microphone, her scoldings, the audience seats, the cello room, the messy backstage and the chairs stacked up all over in the corridor to the way we greet Ding goodbye w a 谢谢丁老师, 辛苦了.

It's all so familiar, this is really cliche but it feels just weeks ago that my SYF marathon is over. But in reality it's 2 years ago.

I didn't get to talk to any of the juniors, well excluding the 2 girls me and marj met in the toilet, but I'm proud to say I actually misses PRSS's Chinese Orchestra. I haven't felt that connected to CO since after SYF 2009. There were many reasons and everyone practically knows that I have some grudge w the new chairman.
I didn't feel that CO is one for all, all for one after SYF.
But now I see my juniors on stage, everyone of them faces so familiar, being so united and playing such beautiful music. It really just teared right that instance.

They're there already, notes, movement, performance. Ahhhh i wonder is this how our seniors felt like when they're watching us from below 2 years earlier, or were they thinking we suck and we most probably won't maintain our Gold w Honours?

Life's such a joke. :)

I mean seriously la! I really like both pieces. Pleaseeeee give PRSSCO Gold w honours again this year! Sigh why are results only out after 2 days! Jiayou juniors, if you people did it like how you've played in TECC on sat, GWH should be given to us. (?) Heard the competition's really stiff this year. They're only giving out 5.

Pleaseeee let the normally GWH fews know about PRSSCO. C'mon! The first neighbourhood sch to get GWH should definitely be a legend, no? k, k, no more stress haha.

Really reminds me of how my string always get loose and I'll have to run backstage alone to tune it! Pipa strings, sigh.

Here's one of the cute Ms Kuan giving away the cupcakes ^^

Hmmmm actually I was kind of guilty at one point in time 'cos me and ys/feli they all kept talking to Miss Kuan and Ho in the audience seat. There's many things to chat about when students meet fav teacher in a long time y'know! Then we were quite, okay, very noisy. I think it's really disrespectful so I'll quiet down for a bit at some point in time but when I hear them say something interesting I'll add in again. *SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF* Actually, I think ys is the noisest one la! HAHAHAH! She's so excited talking to Ms Kuan and she's just chirping away about CJ, about her life, about us, about XXX etc. Some more Ys's voice very high pitched and it's kind of loud in the silent theatre. And Ms kuan is so cute when she speaks in mandarin!! *Like finally.* Ms kuan is defined as 'Please switch to channel 5' whenever she talks to us. Now she just reply us in mandarin ahahhahaha soooo fun!

PS/ I REALLY LUV ZHENG ITS SUPER NICE I CAN TOTALLY FEEL IT.

And i super adore my pipa juniors! I was concentrating on them and the few that I can see are really playing well and moving well! *Screams*

Oh and Shagana, I know you'll never, in a million years read this but the way you move is awesome! I totally feel like you should be put as er hu shou xi!!!!!!!!! ^^

K CO NO MORE.

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GUESS WHO.

YES OMG IT'S LINDA CHUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*RAVES OFF*

SOOOOOOOO PRETTY *NO DOUBT*, SKINNY *OBVIOUSLY!*, WHITE AND RADIANT *OMG WHAT AM I THINKING SHE'S A STAR*, GRACEFUL AND ALL OTHER GOOD STUFFS TO DESCRIBE HER BEAUTY.
Her voice's so amazing they sound like a lullaby! I love her English accent and the cute mistakes she make sometimes when she used canto instead of mandarin.

Really have to thank Marj for accompanying me to see her! I'd been alone if not for marj! *gives a bear hug*

I MUST SEE HER LA, she's only at the mall that's 10mins bus ride from my house. WHAT IN THE WORLD WOULD I BE THINKING IF I MISSED IT.

Marj's also my photographer *thanks a million* 'cos I'm short (I admit it for once) and can't take good views ;(

I'm so happy and contended awww she sort of made my day ^^

SUPER BIG FAN OF HER.

Anw she's a TVB HK artiste.

Last picture before I go, rest are gonna be in personal collection.

*faint from prettiness*

PS/ SO ENVIOUS OF PEOPLE WHO HOLD DSLR. THEY CAN ZOOM IN PERFECTLY AND TAKE A SUPER CLEAR SHOT OF HER FACE. That woman beside me took so many nice shots I wanted to ask if she would mind mailing me those. Decided that it's kind of rude in the end.

Sigh! $$$$$$$$$$$!!!!!

Pps/ Is it very hard to read my blog font? I really can't tell 'cos I don't read back!!

Halfway through.

2011-04-14T22:59:00.001+08:00

I wonder how much cuter can hamsters get!
If you don't wanna waste time you can directly fast forward to 00:32 that's where the super-cuteness starts! *FAINT FROM OVERLOAD OF CUTENESS*

I'm feeling so apprehensive for orientation ahhhhh TP TP TP.

I don't wanna go school.

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Btw Marj is really random that day, she called me in the middle of the afternoon and went: I don't wanna go school~~~~~~
Then she said bye.

LOLLLL

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I'm not feeling excited at all there's this feeling of doom or something, afraid that I'm not able to adapt and all. Grrrrrrrr I don't like orientations. I should feel lucky that mine's only two-days. AND NON-RESIDENTIAL *that's the deciding factor* HEHEHEHEHEH have fun to the people not in business school! Having a 3D-2N camp sounds fun! :P Remember not to tire yourselves too much, afterall, your camp is 3 days long!

WAHAHHAHAHA i'm really evil.

Speaking of orientation camp, i think my camp leader called me today. Someone told me that the camp leaders would call by the week. But my phone's outta batt thus I didn't picked up. Don't know if I should text to that unknown number and ask.
Forget it I'll wait till my camp leader call again hahaha.

Oooooh btw please be careful when crossing the road people, life is fragile. :(

hais, gonna go do a Bday card now.

Bye.

ps/ should I change my font it's so messy!

Christina Grimme.

2011-04-12T20:57:00.000+08:00

i totally love this song and she sings so much better than the auto-tuned version! I mean this songs kinda always brighten up my day and i love her version so much more. Just like how much I like hers and sam tsui's Just a dream. Nelly,, ewwww.

ehhhh i know she can't sing the high notes and all in this vid BUT THIS VID ONLY 'cos its very long ago. omg im sucha big fan of her hahahahaha! So pretty some more!

I feel so happy now hahahahah ;/

I feel for Rebecca Black.

She's just a rich girl trying to complete her dream. Just, don't come up w more albums anymore..

K, just wanna share about her.
Thankyou, bye.

2011-04-09T02:05:00.000+08:00

I luv you girls.

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead.

2011-03-26T00:47:00.001+08:00

Was tumblring and saw this very interesting typography.

Doesn't it applies to almost every ex-couple??

The girl's always the poor one who can't get over it. And 2 days later you'll see the guy hanging around w a new chick.
That just happens too often. There's too many examples around me I'm already numb to it.

It already becomes a sorta, unspoken rule.

Girls, fight for it.
If the guy doesn't care, why should you either?

I know that I'm one of the lucky few, and I'm really thankful for that.

The summer haze, the glory days.

2011-03-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

You know how time flies, only yesterday was the time of our lives.

I really wanna have a try at hangul. (Don't judge me it isn't because of the k-wave now)

Actually I've tried learning it one year back but gave up subsequently. It isn't easy to pick up a language and I'm not really a patient person. And no, it isn't because of all the korean idols and such. Okayyyy maybe I'm a little influenced by my sister and I do adore SNSD, and maybe, the voice of IU, I'm not a kpop kinda girl and I definitely don't go crazy over them as my sister and my dear bestf do.
Seriously, they're insane. :/

I just don't get it how can someone scream at the computer screen, waiting to dive into it and hug the girls of their dream. !@)Y#^!&??????? It's a screen yo, wake up, sister!

I'm a proud fan of C-pop. HAHHAHAHAHAHA. *go tw, go hk, go tw, go hk, ohyeahhh~*

Anyway, was just thinking how pretty hangul letters looks! They're not like chinese words. I think no matter how ugly your handwriting is in korean they'll appear fine and artistic to people who don't understand the language. Whereas chinese words looks somewhat vulgar if it isn't written nicely.

I don't know maybe it's 'cos I don't know korean and I'm a chinese-lang enthu. I really can't stand people who writes ugly chinese characters, including myself. I'll put my heart into writing every character, anytime. Well, unless it's the end of a compo and time's running out. ;P

That always happens doesn't it haha!

Sigh, just went to look at a rich girl's blog and she posted about writing to her korean penpal in hangul. She took classes from this language center which provided a cert when you graduate. Plus, the classes are very, very costly. :(

I hope she know that she's a lucky girl.

It's really fortunate to be born w a golden spoon.

Okay, I won't just sit here and get jealous over rich kids, poor people, we'll work hard, double than that of the lucky ones. Won't we? I'll find that chance to learn hangul!

*cheers*

Hehehhe. *u*

let the sunshine rise.

2011-03-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

BABBBBBBYYYY I'M SO PROUD OF YOUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!

<333333333333333333333333

do hcjc proud, do us proud~

最重要的決定

2011-03-25T18:46:00.001+08:00

The lyrics are just so touching ahhhhhhhh~~~~ :')

They're totally the perfect couple manxzs.

Why mv no 黑人 and xiao s + friends!?! They should find fanfan's bestfriends to be the bridesmaid in the mv what who's two unknown girls? :/

“我愿意每天在你身边苏醒”
Oh pleaaaaaseeeee 也太感人了吧!!!!!!!!!

"一個瘋的..一個傻的...真是絕配到不行!!

這樣的配搭真的好幸福快樂(^V^)

希望黑人跟范范白頭到老!!

TINY329BLISS1010"

from youtube

<33333333333333333333333

Vintage

2011-03-24T01:49:00.002+08:00

I've just realized IE and mozilla users can't see the cursive font?? K I have totally no idea how to describe the font it's just like these curvy letters and all... What am I talking?! K forget it. 'Cos I've been slacking in office today and using boss's computer to look at blogs and all and she uses firefox and IE so I've realised that a friend who have some curvies in her writings couldn't show in IE/firefox. Which again comes to what I believe after using google chrome: Chrome's the best. Google ftw.

Ps/ Rachel Hor said that she don't mind giving me her turquoise nail polish that I've been eyeing on for like since I set my eyes on it! *Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh* Hahahahahhaa I know, i know. She totally loves me. Hehehehhehe!!!!!! Yeahhhh la she's so nice I admit. *it's weird to see her being nice* HAHHAAH RACHEL HOR LEH. LOL!!!!!

But if I do get my hands on it I'm so gonna do this!!!! And I'm gonna try it on Marj who have super long vampire-like nails which is like gonna be so super nice!!!!

C'mon you gotta admit that's like so pweeeetyyy laaaa!!!

*eggggcited*

Anways I'm like so sleepy but I wanna accompany the studying-for-jc-block-test-one till he sleeps. :/

Gonna read my xs in the meantime!
Or should I go tidy up my pictures? I have like 30GB (Yes, I swear, 30gb) of pictures stored in my comp. Dad says he's gonna delete them all if I don't clear half by this weekend. Sigh.

At least they're in my pink hardisk already. My pretty hardisk w 150gb of memory is my consolation. :)

k goodnight people, sleep early.
Night owls have dry, dull skin and unhealthy panda eyes.

trippin' gold

2011-03-23T12:51:00.001+08:00

When life gives you lemon go stuff them up someone's butt.

I'm so lazy!

Cindy Tay is officially, openly slacking in office now~~
Really, don't, feel, like, calling, damn!

Hate being a telemarketer so much, even though the pay's good. That's why the pay's good y'know. What you have to bear is just too much. Boss's putting so much stress on me. I've got a freaking 11 appointments yesterday from all her old customers which she forgot/cannot make it/lazy that day to meet, some as long as 8 years ago. They don't even remember her already please.

And there she is, grumbling about how I've only made 11 appointments.
""That's the better ones already leh, why only 11 so few?""

HOW I KNOW!? Maybe it'll be better if you people do contact your clients for annually or something.
And the people I've called yesterday isn't even like her client can. It's those that she missed but didn't bother to call back to refix their appointment. How you expect me to say?
""Oh hi dear Mr Prospect, yeah actually you have an appointment w my boss around 8 years ago but you guys didn't manage to meetup. So why not I help you refix it to next week? Cheers!""

Seriously?
Thus what I'm calling is akin to cold calls. It's only that the people are supposedly nicer.

If I'm working at Tanjong Pagar's outlet which pays $10/appt made I've made $110 yesterday (minus basic pay of $6.50/hr) . Should i jump over to tanjong pagar's? I'll be so freaking rich there. But then I'll feel like I'm a betrayal. Ha-ha. Oh and I'm complaning about different boss today. Calling for S.F today, not Moon.

And its the lunch time now so everyone's going out for lunch. Which makes it even lazier for me to call.

Blogging w office comp is so scary 'cos it's sorta illegal? At least my boss wouldn't like me to use her laptop during office hours. I've been slacking for the past 15 mins already. Omg i'm so guilty now. Btw her Fujitsu laptop is really nice to type with! And her keyboard's white, so sweet.

It's such a pleasure to blog with her laptop.

So thrilling heheheh don't know when she'll suddenly pop out and see me using her computer for other purposes. I jump whenever any agents walk near me. Luckily I'm seating at the corner seat today. I'm alone now. It's awesome. Wernching is late for 24 mins already, and still counting.

Okay should totally get back to work now before someone finds out! There's a cctv behind me hehehe.

Sorry for the random post. Kthxbai!

PS/ GOOD LUCK FOR CSC PAPER LATER ON BABY <3

*hug* ^^v

Red gold, red queen.

2011-03-22T02:46:00.000+08:00

I like the fact that he's imperfect, in an interesting way.

Just read marj's blog and she makes me wanna post up my strawberry nails to 献丑 tooooo!!!! for people like wenyi and xinyi whom i'm never gonna meet in like ten million trillion years. Wait, i wonder if they even still read my blog to update themselves!!!!! chou nv ren.

Had a day off today!!!! *jumps w joy*

Actually not exactly a day off, its just that my boss suddenly feel like she have lesser things for me to handle this week so she'll rather me rush my work from tues-fri than to pay me from mon-fri but let me finish my job w ease.

Thus i have a whole day off today! So shiok! Went back to school to collect SGC report in the noon and it was so embarrassing to see my juniors idk why. Saw Mr Collin Lee too but he didn't notice me. *sigh of relief*

It was like some cop show where me and Eleanor were the cops doing some undercover work or something it's so fun hahahahahha! Went to parkway next for a korean stationery shop which sells super nice and cute stickers which are definitely overpriced and ended up in Swensons for lunchner. (lunch + dinner) Nooooottttt goooood. All my expenses today are billed to Eleanor which equals to I-have-to-return-her-a-lot-of-money-after-i-get-my-pay. Went to F21 next and omgggg bought a super nice pink knitted cardigan for $31. Ahhhhhhh i hate you Eleanor stop bringing me to shop! She totally busted a hole in her wallet 'cos it's like the most she've spent in a shopping trip ever. She's like so xin tia otw home. Hahahahh very funny!

My first F21 shopping bag!

Okay i know how terribly suagu i am but hey, i'm not a rich kid right! Didn't manage to photograph my first topshop shopping bag. Topshop leh! One necklace $30. Topshop regulars are either super rich or a super spendthrift. Is Topshop branded? Kinda count right? It isn't like gucci-superbranded or chanel-superbranded but it's there right? Branded leh. Hahahah.

There, how's my straberry-nails? Cute right! It's so diy-able.

I swear the camera didn't do it justice. :(
It's so cute and easy you just have to try it! It looks nice on every girl. Well except, you know, like ms chua (prss's super fierce and strict and lao gu ban dean)

And yeahhhhh girls we should totally meet up soon. :(

I'm so out of time! I know, i got the same hours a day as Albert Einstein. Hahahahah Patrick Jane!!!! *from the mentalist*

How about mahjong this sat? :D Oh no i'm so addicted to mj!!!!!

ps/ i totally love my new knitted cardigan ahhhh!!

psps/ shit manxzs there's work again tmr. ;(

2011-03-17T03:30:00.001+08:00

PPS/ I'M HAVING VERY HIDEOUS NAILS NOW 'COS MY ERMEI JUST SACRIFICED HER SLEEP TO '"TRY IT OUT'" ON ME BUT IT'S SUPER UGLY AND SHE WOULDN'T LET ME WASH IT OFF ;(

PPPS/ LOOKING FORWARD TO BDK85 DINNER TMR! <3

Just jump

2011-03-17T03:24:00.003+08:00

"Ohana means family, and family means no one gets leave behind."

Guess where.

It's early in the morning at 3:14am and I'm still not asleep yet, why? 'Cos i'm addicted to my xiaoshuo ;(

I haven't finish it btw!!! it's still face down, spread out out my bed. I was thinking that it's kind of late and i should probably sleep so I should go look at some blogs before I sleep. I went the usual ones and tadah, felt like blogging. :D

*cheers*

Went to the lib w Eleanor and Marjorie yesterday for some materials to go through before poly starts. *searching for materials is a cover-up* I don't wanna rot my day at home just because my boss suddenly text me on Mon night to tell me that i 'should probably start work on Wed instead'. And wenyi and wernching didn't accompany me to sushi~~ But i understand such last min plans... Going to the lib is good because I've just cleared the fines in my bby's card which i owe the national lib thanks to my lazy-self who didn't want to return the book entitled '3-D animation something blah blah' because I totally need it for my exams last year and I couldn't be bothered to go renew the book whenever it's due. :/ Hello, Animation 'O' levels okay! Must fine me $8plus ;( If it wasn't a B3 I wouldn't have paid the fines. My card is red w fines of, hmmm, let's round it down to $30. And I've decided that I'll never use my lib card in my life anymore. I'll just abuse the cards of others (and making sure that I'll drag myself down to the lib to return it when it's due) HAPPY? ;(

We were, erhm, trying out felicia's phone-camera (I borrowed a spare phone from her) 'cos I couldn't take un-blurry photos but Eleanor manage to manage it perfectly.

Doesn't Marj look so shag?

idk laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Eleanor insist that Marj's just looking like Marj and I was thinking if it's a compliment. Hmmm. YAY GUESS WHICH PICTURE IS MY WALLPAPER NOOOOW.

duh, the one that i don't look exceptionally uglier in right. GUESS WHICH GUESS WHICH.

Woooo my colleague commented that my wallpaper's nice today. Made me chirpy all the while till another agent sat right next to me and shut me up. :/
And don't i look so much younger in bangs?!!
Why people don't like!!!
*except for my girlfs which totally made me feel that they're just trying to make me feel better.

HAUL OF THE DAY.
SUPER SUPER SUPER HEAVY I SWEAR. IT'S LIKE AT LEAST 5KG.
It's all thanks to the tourism management book which is as you can see the thickest and every page is waxed. Imagine the weight. Almost tore my shoulders.
k i know 3/4 of the books that I've borrowed is non-related to my course but hey, reading is awesome. Much less reading books that would improve your knowledge like, hmmm 101 easy recipes and dog training.. :D Y'know, 'cos i'll surely have to cook someday, and a puppy or two is like, my lifelong dream. So, the books makes sense isn't it?? They're relevant. Yes. Yay i'll have something to study too when bby's studying beside me in starbucks where everyone's studying and it's just weird to be reading my xiaoshuo there. Yayyyyy! So happy! ^^

Omg look at the time omg i'm so gonna get scolded for dozing off tmr. Boss is in office tmr!!!! OH NO. GOTTA GO K BAI.

ps/ a colleague-intern from nyp just told me tht her classmate's brother got a GPA of 4.0 but still couldn't enter NUS's business course. Omg i'm devastated by the news. Anyone do know if it's true? :(

An everlasting smile

2011-03-15T15:43:00.002+08:00

It's such a pity she's was so pretty :'(

So damn touching la this song!!!!!

*and i won't blame you la ben dan*

Btw's how's the new template? Refreshed? ;)

Turn around, up and down

2011-03-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

That's how my previous template looks like, idw to forget her ;(

Ahhhhhh just tried the customizing of blog template and it's so much harder than I expected. Had to reach out for help ;/ It's so sad that I couldn't use the template now 'cos it's not ready yet and I like it a lot, since it's customize by me. LOL. So refreshed that I'm looking at a new template when I open my blog. Hope that saviour Eleanor Hor will get to me soon! I'm already having a headache looking at all the CSS tutorials. Those who study website designing are really impressive. I reckon it's even worse than Animation!

Anyway just looked at Feli's blog and AIYO WHY WOULDN'T YOU BEFREIND SOMEONE LIKE YOU?! I mean if you were not you and okay this is so confusing. You're funny and jiang yi qi and fun to be with and won't take our money even when you won 6 fan + zi mo T~~T and there's so many other stuffs that stick us together. *point to Marjorie* if not why you think this girl always stick to you? You're so much better than what you give yourself credit for and trust me, you're a really lovely, lovely girl. :)

And "试问人活在世上有几人不必在意他人眼光且为自己而活，那么高的境界因该无人能及吧。"

Quoted from 湛露's 玉阳卷 hahahahha.

Right? I'M RIGHT! :D

And of course almost everyone thinks of themselves before others. That's why I totally adore Eleanor 'cos I think she's like dumb enough to put everyone in front of her. She does that for everybody, even like some stranger whom she just met for an hour? It's just weird why people prefer those sociable one who are friends with everyone and not take some time to dig inside the hearts of the soft-spoken ones, like felicia and peiqi etc. Wenyi and Yishing no longer stands a place in that category hahaha. ;P

Haven't they heard how if one is a friend to everybody he's a friend to none? Okay or something like that hahahah. I admit that I'm not as noble as Eleanor but I'm getting influenced by her bit by bit ^^

It's not like she's a saint and won't blow up but she just... idk how to say and idk if it's because of the influence of SOKA. Which is her prestigious religion (which I like 'cos they teach awesome values)

*idk this isn't up this afternoon it's supposed to be posted at around 11plus 12~~~

Hang on Japan (L)

2011-03-14T03:20:00.000+08:00

Hang on Japan. :'(

I am very disturbed that I can't do anything to help other than moral support but I do hope Japan knows that the world is w them, always. And I'm so, so, so, so, so worried about retards who are praying for a pornstar. Okay I know how she's a soul too but i don't see why she gets more blessings than normal civilians; is it just because she exhibited her body to men worldwide? http://bit.ly/fl4Rpp

Can these men wise up and don't be so shallow?!?!

It's a big blow to everyone on this planet I guess. This could count as catastrophic isn't it?? I wasn't expecting such a blow when CNN first report of the tsunami. I mean, tsunami isn't a new noun to everyone after the cataclysmic news in 2004 isn't it? Everyone now runs when they see waves piling up to even half a meter high right? Okay almost everyone... I didn't know that the damages would be so... huge.

I really respect all the victims of natural disaster. Be it the Tsunami in Japan or the one in Indonesia or previous earthquakes in China and Japan and all. It really isn't easy to 'stand up'. Those who picked themselves up are such heroes and heroines. If it were me I'd rather die than to live my life all over again knowing my family and friends are gone. Like how i admire that guy from 127hours. It's insane how he manage to saw off his hand w the made in china knife.

*sidetrack*

"He's very confident." Hahahhahaha.

*track back*

Oh yea i was saying if it was me I would rather die than to endure such a torture. And being a coward I'll also sought for the easiest and fastest way to die. Which I've imagined before and it appears to be dying from lack of blood. Hahhaha 'cos you'll faint and never regain conscious ever again. It's just like sleeping. He's awesome.

And I like like like like like what Eleanor wrote in her blogger X1000000000.

I sometimes imagine how it is like if some country attacked Singapore w a nuclear bomb. We'll all be going through our everyday lives and life's hectic and busy and exciting as usual and after the bomb drops we'll all be vaporized to.. there's not even ashes right? It's so easy to rub every being off from the surface of the Earth and if we (all our family and friends) die together nobody would even remember us. *referring to not-famous people. Sometimes I'll be thinking how tiny I am when I'm looking from that angle I just mentioned. LOL.

Sigh.

Good luck Japan. I give all of you my blessings and I promise I'll pray before bed later *which I have never done so even during 'O' levels* Apparently this is more serious that my Olevels. Okay off to bed. Goodnight Earthlings. Take care <3

It's 3plusss ;(

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UPDATE: i just had a nightmare and woke up and I dreamt that Japan is sinking and Singapore and Malaysia and all the Asian countries would sink too in like a min's time and it's so scary everyone's just screaming and crying and there are babies and elderly which just makes me cry too and there's dead people floating around and i'm from this high point which is like having the first class ticket to seeing our planet sinking and all and I can't find anyone I know and I'm so scared and I tried to jump into the water too but my body just wouldn't budge omg and i totally woke up feeling like trash and omg ahhhhh it must be 2012's fault that I dreamt of sinking cities. Idiot! I don't wanna die yet I haven't do a lotta things and everything's still on my bucket list omg :'(

ps/ bby i love you :'(

Oh yeah girlfriends

2011-03-09T03:42:00.000+08:00

Just a side-note before I go to bed, I LOVE YOU GIRLFRIENDS!!!

We should totally take more pictures, just realised i don't take much pictures w you all ;( Especially Felicia, Pq, Ys, Wy, Eleanor and Adilah and wc and my dear old xinyi. Okay that's like almost everyone. Except for marj. Why is that, 'cos marj is such a zilian queen she can just take my cam and zilian herself no matter i'm in the mood or not. Anybody want evidence? *HE-HE-HE*

I think I'm going crazy or something 'cos I'll always suddenly think of someone before i sleep like i was thinking of my clique the other day and send them weird messages which almost everyone replied asking if i'm okay. And was thinking of Adilah and xinyi the other day. And then yesterday was novy and liting which was really random so i didn't text either of them. It's like okay PRSS sucks but the people there totally awww *melts away* And i realised i haven't been telling you girls how much i care 'cos i'll go crazy over my perfect boyf just like how i go crazy over you girls but its just that i don't do that on a every-second-basis like my... you know who k shouldn't make you all puke. Eh cannot blame me right i'm not les right but i love you all too.

HAHAHAH OOOPS IM NOT ZHONG SE QING YOU OKAY) OKAY THE SIDE-NOTE GOT WAYYYYY TOO LONG I'M GONNA GO SLEEP ALREADY BYE.

ps/ xujie's mother is soooooooooo cute.

Growing

2011-03-09T03:17:00.002+08:00

This made me feel so guilty that I'm not treasuring my greens around me. The trees and forest look so story like in the video paired w her sing-song voice and the soft tingling music. I couldn't help but re-watch it over and over again. It just relaxes me so much ahhhhhhh idk how to say just feel like getting myself right down there and feel the earth and the mist and the ferns and the logs ahhhhh they're so beautiful. They even made the spider and their nets look pretty. How is that even so. Hmmm.

*cut cut*

Awwwww i luv Singapore.

Sorry, was looking at the Home video hahahahahahaah ain't i patriotic. I love you k Singapore I'm so proud to be a Singaporean. Oh there was this incident whereby a friend told me she'd been chatting on forums and when she says that she's a Singaporean, the Caucasians would go 'Singapore? Which country is that state in?' WELL C'MON OMG UPDATE YOURSELF WE'RE THE ONE WITH THE NICEST AIRPORT AND IT'S SO NICE YOU WOULD WANNA SLEEP IN OUR AIRPORT *PROUD*

I was so angry at those strangers they made my mood bad for a day.

*cut back*

Okay I can't get the rainforest feeling anymore 'cos i'm feeling so patriotic and high now hahahah and I don't wanna watch the redwood video again 'cos i'm gonna go to bed already. So.. Yup. Please spend just 3 min of your time watching it just please go take a look it's so awesome you'll totally like it. It reminds me of spa and facial. Hahahhaha 'cos it's like so relaxing and all. K bye gonna go to bed already. It's about time too it's 3:11am. And Oh yea i totally remember that I'm having a dental appointment tomorrow at 9 in the morning and am working from 11-6 in the noon.

I'm so looking forward to friday.

Kthxbyegoodnight. ps/ 国际交易所 is so funny!! But still think season 1 is better ;(

psps/ not all Caucasians are that ignorant.

k gdnight. No more ps anymore.

Good Day

2011-03-07T14:17:00.002+08:00

and here comes a feeling you thought you'd forgotten.

I miss you Mr. Strong! Don't know where did I put you already. :(

I'm getting very tired of my blogskin and now blogger's coming up w this new template thing (that eleanor likes) so i'm gonna go have a try at it! Yipeee. I'm really jealous at all the rich kids who don't have to work and can still spend like they print $$$$$. ;/ Ordinary civilians like us can only live life as it comes. It's karma!!!!

Anyways hi JC kids how's college?? Ys seems to be coping fine which is good and wc is not studies-friendly but made lotsa friends which is also good. And wy why only surface-friends?!!!!! You have to be in there for 2 years you know its your mission from this sec on you must-get-20m-water-deep-friends of whom you can pour your hearts out with okay! Don't get us worrying for you! Oh and major congrats to wc for appealing out of nyjc into tp! :) We know you would miss your ny-mates though ;(

Oh and hi upcoming poly kids how's life now? Mostly consist of work yea? Except for the rich ones/lazy ones/ mum-won't-let-me-go-work-:( ones who's so damn lucky you totally have to realise how fortunate you people are. Work's so much harder than school. Work life equals to (as quoted from Eleanor) 'WELCOME TO HELL'. Yeaaaaa you'd earn money but sometimes its pay before pride for the unlucky ones. You so have to be able to predict your boss' next move and eg. if he/she's not in a good mood for the day, be prepared to get bitten by your boss. Okay i'm generalizing now cause that's how my boss is like, she's such a bitch. Eh i so hope she wouldn't chance upon what I've written cause i totally need her money for poly ;(

Ahhhhhhhh there's work tmr! HOLY!

Good luck to all working personnels out there! And congrats to all couch potatos! :D

you're my alarming happiness

2011-03-04T00:56:00.002+08:00

You're my alarming happiness. ♥

Happy one year annv baby! (19 Jan 2011)
"我们是在床船上认识的~"

Hahahhahahahahaha i saw this post in my drafts. Wanted to post during 19-01-11 11:59pm.
And i fell asleep. Or something like that i can't remember. Hahahah!

Till now i can't really believe i have a loving boyf by side already.
He's always like the perfect guy i sometimes am envious of myself hahahaha. How could i be so lucky?! There must be some catch somewhere heaven is never so kind. I'm waiting for the catch! C'mon~!

Hahahha but seriously i have nothing to complain about him. ^^v
He's beautiful~~~~~~

Good luck bby you're getting back your 'A' levels PW results tmr.
I'll be keeping my fingers crossed and waiting for your good news! *u*
Go 写好你的论文 and get the leekuanyew award back okayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!
I'm so proud of you! *hug*

<3

Good things.

2011-03-04T00:46:00.001+08:00

Sometimes the right things and the hardest things are the same.

Hello. I'm back. LOL k i don't know why i have this sudden urge to blog like i always do after maybe, like, half a year of rest from the keyboard. To think i almost forgot my login id. :/

I don't feel like saying much though, just miss the feeling of typing w/o thinking. Using my laptop now *hehehe* and feel so snuggled up. I'm wrapping myself up in marshy soft blankets and pillows that kinda act as a cuddling barricade and both my air-con and fan is on so it's freezing even with blankets over. It's just the way i like it.

I have only my head poking out of my cocoon and music playing in the background. Ahhhh if only my darlin' is beside me now hahahahahahahhahahaha ;)

I like life now, without having to get stressed up about work or studies. Just living life as it comes is so relaxing. Couldn't hit the pause button though. *Sigh*

I'm really glad i've chosen to take the poly route 'cos i know that i wouldn't be able to do well in math in JC (which is a compulsory subj, i know right, what?!?!) K I'm waiting for school to start now and i'm spending my money like i have a regular income. I know i shouldn't do this but i'm so stressed up because of work i totally deserves a let-off. *self consolation*

To be honest i'm actually anticipating poly life hahaha. I'm starting to get a little interested in the course i'm posted to. Hospitality and Tourism in TP. :O

It isn't my N88 but still, MOE can't make everyone happy.

*shrugs*

Hope that i would do well in it! Have to make my boyf and sisters proud :) And i have to prove my dad wrong! I've chosen this route so i should excel in it.

Wait and see people.

Hahahahah k i'm gonna go off to my books already. G'night people :)

pre-results

2011-01-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hi Earthlings, confession #12,

i'm really, really, really afraid of tomorrow. Release of Olvls results.

What am i gonna do, if it turns out to be much more worse than what i've expected?

I'm glad to have so many people standing by me but.. Haiya. Idk.

See you people.

Bye and good luck to all those people out there who's as nervous as me. :)

Hey boy, you're hot HEHEHEHEH

2011-01-04T01:21:00.000+08:00

Hey ordinary boy with roses and love letters, you're better than prince charming with his white horses.

HAHAHHAA MY HWACHONG-BOY JUST TEXT ME SAYING HE'S NOT JEALOUS OF FAT TOTORO. HAHAHAHAHAAH, HOW CUTE IS THAT <3333

AWWW you're so cute i wanna keep you in my pocket!

Anws my colleague gave him this nickname hahaha cause she was asking which school then when i told her she kept making fun of it. And the way she pronounce it its like super cute hahahahah i like it very muchhhhh. ^^y She said the boy like how mothers call their child like 'ah boy ah' those kind of pronunciation. Aiyeshh, imagine it yourself lur!

HAHAHAH so cute~~

point is, cherish them.

2011-01-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

Don't we all regret, when people we know, became people we knew.

For the sticky-est glucose ever.

Was feeling down cause i just quarreled w someone at home. So i decided to cheer myself up by looking through the pics i took during marj's birthday celebration. I've just realised i haven't been uploading pictures in millenniums already. Just learnt of this word so i'm gonna abuse it. Heheheh.

Thus i decided to play around with a few selected photos and post it up. Was thinking about facebook but i was lazy enough to push it off. Tried a few filters and i was quite happy w them hahaha.

To tell the truth, i actually smiled when i saw how everyone was smiling in the pictures. I'm such an imaginative freak.

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Break, eleanor just cheered me up HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!

I was telling her about the fight just now on msn and we started talking about blogs. And there was this girl's blog we were looking at....... And i just thought this girl look funny with a 'sorry, too much botox, that's the reason i smile weird' face and eleanor pointed out that she looks like a geisha. AHHAHAHA. Then she spotted some photos w that girl looking like a foreign maid. OKAY I TOTALLY SOUNDS LIKE A BITCH NOW. But c'mon it's just self entertainment.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Okay sorry i digressed. Back to marj's birthday.

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So actually, that enormous minnie mouse helium balloon you see marj holding is a birthday present from yours truly! Aren't i kind?? *praises* i know i know stop praising me i'm shy.

*blush*

HAHHAHA don't puke yet, tyvm.

That cake i wasn't interested in.

We got a mango cake with her, topped with seven candles that would relight themselves. Imagine her expression when she realised she can't blow them off. HAHAHA, it's priceless. The cake was quite disappointing though, it was just a ordianary mango cake, no explosives in the middle or whatsoever. Why can't bakery shops be more creative? :/

KK, group photos coming.

We were all feeling like, the whole point about the celebration was photo-taking session and not celebrating 'cos we really took a lot of time trying to capture a sensible photo w/o any weird expressions or someone still talking on her phone or someone being unsatisfied w the picture.

It was hilarious hahahahah!!

And i have on hand a ghostly picture of swy and feli waiting for the time to be ripe to rip them off!

*evil laugh*

I like the last one a lot hahahahahaha, particularly 'cos i totally adore helium balloons, wait, adore is not a word for them, i totally love them, like how i love totoro. HAHAHHAHA.

*imagining xujie's jealous expression*

Hi, sorry i'm back again, was distracted by my beau's cuteness.

*blush*

Oh speaking of blushing, novels are really novels, those xiao shuos characters keep blushing one lor, got so many blood let her blush uh! I think she'll get a heart attack or something please................

Ordinary humans totally don't blush like they do, blushing in every other sentence. I mean, 99% of teenagers now can look at a nude photo w/o blushing, i suppose?

No, i'm sure of that. Even the most shy yishing won't blush already.

Those novel girls still blush what! ACT CUTE. :3

kkkkkkkk, off to laugh w eleanor again!

ciao!

Attached.

2011-01-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

We attach ourselves so strongly to people; when they're gone, a part of us is, too.

AWWWWWWWWWW.

isn't that just so sweet?

2010, are you happy?

2011-01-02T01:32:00.002+08:00

I know i am.

2010 had been quite a blast for me. It was an eventful year (although i felt quite inferior when i saw xiaxue's blog T___T)

I faced my books the most in the four years of my secondary school life (even though the results are quite disappointing), i finally get to stop being a councilor and a CO member, i completed my Animation proj, i fell in love, i got into a steady relationship with the boy i fell in love with, i went on numerous study dates with wc, i shopped till my pocket burnt, i got the feeling of last-min-chiong (haha), i talked about my dreams with Eleanor, i realised i love my friends like how i love my family, my relationship w my family improved, i took my Olevels, i finished my secondary school life, i went to work for the first time, i grew mature (i really did!), i grew taller (self-comforting), i saw who's my true friends, i got into trouble with teachers, i skipped school, i went for stayovers, i live life, i got a super cute hammy as a birthday present, i discovered there's tumblr, i quarreled, i became reliant.

I.... what did i missed? It's eventful no doubt and its the start of a new chapter for me. There were ups and downs and it all boils down to one question: Am i happy? All in all, i think i'm happy. (: I guess i'm easily contended really. (: My family were good to me and my results was better than in 2009, my friends were awesome: they were always there when i need them and last but not least, falling in love was.......... indescribable. Everyone should have a go at it. Hehehheh.

I want to thank everyone who played a part in making me smile in 2010. K no order or whatsoever k don't be petty tyvm :P

Dear mum,

i think that you'll be the best mum ever if you'only you don't keep sleeping and spend more time with us, i love you and actually i've never said that to you in your face before, it's just kind of awkward y'know.

Dear dad,

thank you for being the breadwinner and always the one worrying about money. Please shout lesser at us...... i..... aiyah cannot i cannot say it. :/ i mum okay, and it's kind of the same feelings for you. kind of. Just stop shouting at us for 2011 k. (:

Dear ermei,

Hahahha you're so funnyyyyyyyyyy i'm either smiling or frowning beside you. Don't keep guan wo la aiyo you mu lao hu leyyyy i really have to thank your boyf in the future for even wanting to date you. Hais. Don't keep bullying san mei la tsktsk. And don't be so mean with your words. Continue pursuing dance okay i totally support you. You're gifted. I swear.

Dear grandpa & grandma.

i just hope that you two will be happy in your old ages. Someone please get my grandpa to smile.. it's so sad looking at his face. I love you two even more than dad, you don't know it but we all do. ♥

Dear wernching,

thank you for being the mature one that i can always go to for advice and chats, thanks for being the one i can go to whenever i feel like i wanna spend some $$$$ heheheh, for buying me almost everyth i want, for keeping me company when i need. i believe that we'll be there for each other till the day we die, right? Hahha i can totally imagine us going shopping when we're 50plus. -.-

K bu yong jiang le i think it'll be better for us to talk face-to-face. Aiyah na me shou le hai yao xie meh. :P

Dear marj,

PLEASE BE MORE MATURE T________T

HAHAHHA!! Dui ni de gou hao yi dian okayyyyyy hais i'm so sad for it y'knowwwww. Yay you're getting a dog tmr and i'm so excited!! Thanks for always putting me in a special place in your heart i really appreciate it. i want you to know that you're special to me to. (: Zhen shi de dunno why you keep nian zhu wo :P Xi wang ni hui nian wo nian dao wo 80 sui okayyyyy.

Friends forever!

(i mean it)

Dear feli,

Actually idk if i should tell you this but i look up to you most in our clique heheheh. Okay idk why this feels so mushy so i'm gonna stop the heartwarming stuffs. You're such a chou nv ren can but idk why i can totally relate to you~ *SCREAMS CHOU NV REN AT YOU* And btw i'm xiang de. Hahah your crazy antics never fails to cheer me up. And as mentioned earlier you have a special place in my heart. So don't forgo your special position *hint hint faster come to pai my ma pi* :P

tyyyyyyyvvvvvvvvvmmmm feli for the year.

You're one of the 'i would risk my life to save you' rank in my friends. (:

Dear yishing,

You're a great mj frienddddd hahahahaha. Can we always go up your house to play mj?? I'm always so envious of the relationship u have with your family so i hope that you'll treasure it k!! Math genius you must continue to do well okay~ You're like the braniac in our clique and everyone hope that you will have chu tou de yi tian. HAHAHA :P

Jiayou chinyishing!

Ps, i'll rmb you as a cat for the rest of my life.

Dear Peiqi,

You always gives me surprises. Like how calm and mature you can be when you're so childish and happy-go-lucky in the previous moment. Like how you don't like dress and shopping but suddenly painted your nails electric blue. Like how you can deal with the situation when no one else could. Frankly i think you're more of the lao ma in our clique.

You're too mature for how you look. Hais.

I knoww please don't ^^v cause i say u mature ahhahahaah.

I know you must be smiling if you see this now. This is the first and the last time i'll admit that you're actually kind of mature, soften up. (:

Dear wenyi,

I really like your name! HAHAHHA no la. kidding. Actually the reason i always never meet up with you is because i think that you're the kind of girl who's very suitable for a chat over at a pretty pretty coffeehouse wearing pretty pretty clothes hahahaha idk why :P Then i'm always telling myself that i'm gonna ask wy out during when when when for coffee but it always never happens :/ So sorry okay~~~~

And you're special too.

thanks for the year swy, i know that there're many years to come with both of us in the picture. (:

Dear Eleanor,

You uhhhhh, are one of the most ironic friends i got. You are wayyyyyyyyy too mature for our age you know! And you know how to take care of yourself physically but you always forget your emotional side. Hais so clumsy, there's no choice but for me to be there for you for the coming 80 years of our life lor. :P don't always think so much. And please don't listen to your stupid manager. You're very special to me okay. And i'll never leave you girlf. Trust me on that. K i'm not gonna type so much cause you'll be in my thank-you-list next year too. So tata!

Dear Adilah,

SERIOUSLY, YOU'RE THE KINDEST AND MOST INNOCENT GIRL I'VE MET, always putting others first. It's a super big disadvantage to you y'know?!?!?! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE STAY THIS WAY HAIS. And you really really have a special place in my heart. If i'm not a girl i would totally have fallen in love with you for your caring and kind and sweet and innocent and everyth else. I don't care about our language barrier ( :P ). I'm gonna make you my very very close friends in years to come.

Watch out cause your kid will have a Chinese god-mummy hehhehehe ^^

I'm gonna influence her/him and teach him mandrain WAHAHHA. :P

Thankssss for everyth this year. Idk how i would've survived staying in such a chaotic class if not for the few of you. Luvvvv u!

Ehhhh last but not least,

Dear Love,

3 words is enough to tell us everyth.

Love i you.

HAHAH, let's play unscrambling the words :P

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Dear everyone else who've made me smile,

like Novy and Isabelle, xujie-parents-and-brother-and-cousin-and-relatives, classmates of 4E5, schoolmates of prss, juniors, jiaying, lyn and geof, tuituon-mates, and everyone else,

Big thank you for being in my life~

Okay i'm kind of getting tired already~

So i shall stop now. Anws it's late and i'm not done with the book i'm having my hands on currently. :P

It's picoults's house rules. HEEHEH. YAY GO JODI PICOULT!

Have a nice year too! HAHAHA.

kkkkk idk what i'm talking already.

Anyway, everyone, 2010 is over, let's all welcome 2011 with a big heart kkkk!! :D

Were you happy in 2010?

I'm sure am. :D

Till the Sun falls. ♥

2010-12-31T01:19:00.001+08:00

They say the sun never falls but chicken little warned us the sky do.

Copycat. That's our phrase. TTSF <3

LOL, saw the second picture and thought it was interesting how deja vu it felt.

Happy sixteenth marj!

2010-12-25T01:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED AUNTY-MARJORIE.

Hahaha before i forgot, let's all give Miss Poon a round of applause for being 16! *Someone in the crowd shouts finally* KKKKK. Happy birthday okay, sorry i was so tired i didn't even text u that day :P Sorry la i was sleeping right! 都庆祝了你还要怎样! Kkk. Luv you la okay. Okay good girl. Okay bye. ;)

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HAHHAHA thanks for scrolling people. Like so 敷衍 right. I know. I did it on purpose BOOHOO. Who ask that stupid marj poon keep say i 敷衍. Hmph. I'm not okay. I sincerely wish you a happy happy birthday :D
And of course you should be happy with such good friends (like me) around. You know? Treasure it k. If not you're gonna sing 'back to december' to me. haiesshh. * mimic eleanor*
LUV YOU OKAY AUNTY.
Stay 少根筋 like how you are. ^^

Bye!!

:D

Merry X'mas!

2010-12-24T23:54:00.002+08:00

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. <3

Dear world, its Christmas again! DID YOU REALISE IT'S BEEN A YEAR ALREADY???? * shrieks* The picture i posted for last Christams was this reindeer in a pile of snow and there's a christmas tree next to it. I know i know it's so cliche, everyone's like 'omg another year passed'. I knowwwwwwww just let me complain okay. I mean, to me, 2010's been such a eventful year. I've experienced so much 1st-times (please don't think sick wy and ys, tyvm) in 2010. Like what my dear old friend swy said in the start of the year, it may be a turning point in life for me. And she's right. I shouldn't blabber on about my ups and downs now, i shall save it for new year heheheh ^^

Sooooo i was thinking, i like this year's Christmas a lot. It's been such a long time since i received any presents for x'mas. The last time i got it, i was still a kid and it was the only one time my parents role-played Santa Claus to satisfy my childish fantasy. I did received a card for x'mas last year though, done by dear old Eleanor who's always so sweet to everyone. I remember i was telling her i don't celebrate x'mas anymore and i don't give nor get any presents so she did a card for me out of pitying me. Ha-ha. :/ I luv that card though! It's lined with cotton wool and all to make it look snowy. Handmade. :D

So i wasn't expecting anyth much for this Christmas either but it's been quite a blast for me. I got a hard time hunting for presents, did some handmade stuff for some special people, baked cookies, ate christmas eve dinner, gave presents, received presents. I felt so loved this x'mas hahahaha ^^
I was totally in that festive mood when i strolled along Orchard this afternoon, it felt so good. No wonder people love Christmas. And suddenly, i'm missing a lot of people. Its a secret to who they are though ;)

it's another 10 mins to x'mas. *cheers* Here's to hoping that my Christmas day will feel as good as pre-x'mas and x'mas eve. ^^
I luv my life now, i'm having x'mas ice-cream log cake bought by my family and life's good and i saw both 11:11 today and the main point is, results aren't back yet, LOL. Few more days till horror engulf me. Hais. :/

Anyways, one last complaint. why don't it snows in S'pore?! Fffff :(
I've never seen real snow nor enjoyed snowball fights before. Hais. I want i want i want~~~ *hint hint*
;( kkkkkk. Gonna go now (:

Enjoy your x'mas people. Never stop believing in Santa. (:
Even if your x'mas this year isn't good, look forward to next year's! Your time will surely come ^^

Merry X'mas!

ps/ OMG i think there's alcohol in my log cake. :O
psps/ Finally watched po tian wang today! Seems nice~~~~ I like tang ying cause she reminds me of a small lil' girl (who don't miss me even though i miss her :/ ) That little girl have the same hairstyle as tangying. Oooooohhh i think zou jie ming's so cute~ As in the way he cares for tangying.
Awwwwwwwwwwww *melts*

Espressoul

2010-12-09T17:40:00.000+08:00

Afternoon folks (:

It's been some time since i touch this blog. I kind of miss typing away my thoughts and listening to the 'chap chap chap' of the keyboard. I didn't blogged much in the holidays, partly because he's in Scotland i'm missing him too much to think of anything else ;p and partly because I've been swimming in dramas and more dramas since the start of the holidays. I hasn't been spending my time wisely so to said. Everyone's getting holiday jobs and earning enough to pay for their holiday life and me? I'm lazing at home because my pocket's empty.

And now i'm sitting in a afternoon cafe, lazily sipping my latte and munching on beef sandwich goodness. For the record, it's a cafe named 'Espressoul' and this outlet i'm at is located directly opposite the parliament house in City Hall. High standard of coffee, yummy food, great atmosphere and excellent service. That should explains why they have six outlets in Singapore and another one opening in Feb next year. Eleanor brought me here mainly because she works here hahaha. Wenyi and yishing's working at another outlet at Expo. I wonder why i haven't heard of it before. It's good here because it's not as cramped as any other coffee house like Starbucks or TCC. Crowd makes noise. And i prefer a quiet enough coffee house for me to clear my thoughts and enjoy another lazy afternoon enjoying life ;)

And i definitely recommend it here.

Actually the atmosphere here reminds me of the Starbucks opposite hcjc. I have no idea where it is though :O It's good there too. Yeahhhhh manxzssss my two fav coffee house to date. But I prefer Starbucks' white mocha if i have to choose one between the two. I guess it's just that i'm used to it. And the whip cream goodness. Mmmmm...

I wonder how my friends have been spending their holidays... Working their days away? Ahhh c'mon holiday's only this short. Why everyone likes to spend it working? Sureeeeee, it'll be good earning some allowance but don't you find it a pity? You're surely gonna work when you're older. You won't have holidays like this anymore. But i do admire some teenagers who put off their holidays to help lessen the burdens for their parents. They have my respect (:

I'm not that good girl thoughhhhhhhh... I like holidays ;) But my mean mother wont't give me allowance during holidays :( I can't do all those things i want to like ice skating everydayyyy, Sentosaaaaaaa trips, going out with my sisters and girlf................ and boyf hehehehe.......... Mean mum! :C

She's forcing me to work!!!!!!!!! What can i do...

And my very bad boyf's been all busy with studies and his fencing thingys. :/

I swear i'm not going to get a leadership position in future studies. Okay maybe not swear, but i'll pray hard that nothing leadership-like lands on me. Four years is really enough. And i'm not a good role-model to tell the truth :P

*big sigh*

K i'm going off to watch my dramas now. Yessss i know hahaha i immerse myself in dramas even when i'm outside. It's pathetic but i'm kind of addicted to them now. Watching 'The Mentalist' now. *cheers for Patrick Jane and team :D * I can really spend my whole day in a drama-marathon. That's me ;)

Oh btw, Patrick Jane is totally the western version of Galileo. *faint from their charming-ness*

K off for now. Bye folks!

ps/ its cold here! *brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr*

#34

2010-11-24T17:04:00.002+08:00

idk how this happen :(

Tip for guys.

2010-11-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

Tip for guys:
Never let your girl go to sleep mad. She’s probably not even gonna get a good sleep, so if you really care just suck it up and say sorry. Unless she fcked up big time, then let her sit there and cry while you get a goodnight sleep.

Yo bitchhhhhh button!

2010-11-14T15:14:00.000+08:00

I miss this bitch!

*MUAHAHHAHA* Ooops. You didn't spot me laughing. And i'm referring to my button up there she's female. No people I'm not referring to marjorie. No no no wait, who said that's marjorie! It's just a girl (or guy) with erm, a weird face expression so i decided to give her some form of disguise. So nobody would recognise her. Ain't i the best. Kaka.

Andddddddd guess what *shout what*

Two more days to freedom yay! YAY ^^

Malacca trip's coming too! :D And prom night... Actually to tell the truth i'm not really excited for prom night. *cross heart a thousand times* I have no idea why. Everyone's talking about their dress already, even the nerdiest yishing and peiqi! Oh my god. I so can't imagine peiqi wearing makeup. Hmmm hope it'll be good! I'm looking forward to seeing my sisters in their prom dress though! Actually psst psst *shhh* i have a date with my girlf after prom night and she's gonna stay over at my house. Awwww sixteen is the golden age.

Btw i'm gonna use that classic line from 16 to 21.

Btw can you just walk away during halftime during prom night? If there is halftime. I don't really wanna see the teachers. I want to forget about secondary school! ;) Woots.

But i want to see my girls in their dress, i'm feeling quite random now so this post should be quite randomed.

So, anyone wanna bake cookies with me? :D

I'm gonna learn how to bake cookies and cakessss *notice the sssss* before someone returns from Scotland. Hope someone's not wearing a skirt back from Scotland cause i'll so laugh at him.

*hahhaah*
Okay i'm totally not in the mood for blogging now so bye.

Ahhhhhh same lines, same cycle, same feelings. I miss you.

Groundings.

2010-11-11T23:31:00.001+08:00

That's the evidence for the work i done for CO (;

Just digged out this pic. Not like i didn't do anything okay stupid M. -.-

ps marjorie i'm not referring to you (: I'm referring to the you-know-who-M-who's-damn-irritating.
I'm a freakin' pipa player you go look at the tanbo people lur who who put in hard work won't get rewarded with awesome rotting fingertips like mine. DAMN YOU.
You'll never get that piercing pain of having to press down hard to have a solid note even when your finger, IS, ROTTING. -.-
Ugh, i'm getting disgusted at myself for thinking about the past. Okay what's over is over. I just have one last thing to say.

Hard work triumphs over talents and favouritism :)

Peace. (Y)

Fact 111.

2010-11-10T02:13:00.007+08:00

111. I love how we're growing and i love you more and more each day, yet im scared thats all going to end and you wont care anymore.

please don't stop caring about me darlin'

i love you

2010-11-08T04:11:00.002+08:00

Don't you ever dare to grow up. :@

I love this boy. B'cos no matter what happens, i know it's gonna turn out fine with him around.

No matter what happened at home or in school, be it with studies; with friends; with teachers etc. And no matter how heated our arguments were, things always turns out fine. Problems solved, day saved. You always gives in to me and I always takes it for granted. Nobody asked you to. You could leave anytime you want.You weren't born for me and you aren't obliged to be my superhero. Yet time and again, you cheered me up with your jokes and laughter, you cuddle me in your arms and listened to my problems, you see me complaining about my friends and patching up with them the next day, you were always there. (Except when you go to sleep. Urgh. That always makes me mad) Sleeping was the only exception when you couldn't attend to a princess like me. And being the princess, i'll repeatedly be blasting at you because you aren't there. I know I've been taking you for granted and psss *shhh* i actually like it. Hahah. It's the first time in my life i feel hmm.. how do i put it.. prioritised. That's why insecurities constantly kicks in. 'Cos i know i'm not the prettiest, the smartest and the best girl you can be with. But from this today onwards, i realised one thing. *shhhhhh secret* And i'm going to guard this thing for as long as i can. I finally understand what they meant by 'believe in yourself'. Dear pig, i ~~hope~~ want you to adopt my way of thinking. UNDERSTAND? Don't let our insecurities ruin us :)

And i really hope that you wouldn't grow up.

Who knows what would happen tomorrow. You know...

*big sighhhhhhh*

Don't grow up lur. :/

I mean, be mature. But don't grow up. This theory is unfathomable. I know...
*Whahahaha megamind*

I've said my piece. It's 4 in the morning. :O
Imma gonna hit the hay now.

Goodnight aliens. :)

Sorry for being princessy and fierce and unreasonable and everything en't like me to be. And you're right about during the next quarrel this will just be another cycle that will happen again. But you wouldn't leave me. Will you?

:'(

2010-11-08T00:08:00.002+08:00

i'm awfully sad now. tmr's ss paper. if i cannot hang on, urghhhhhhhhhhhhhh idkkkkkkkkk how.

wttttttttttttttttttttthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh is wrong with meeeeeee. wthhhhhhhhh is wrong with you. :'(

Stop fml!

2010-11-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

Seriously what's wrong with people going FML everyday? Your life isn't fkup. So shut up and be contended. Don't you feel something from looking at these starved kids? What's your life compared to theirs.

*note to self: from now onwards, whoever who fml in my presence shall get a scolding from me.

Urgh, in fact i do know people who go fml always. -.-

No wonder pig don't like when i used fml during animation peak periods. Btw i only used it once! My life is nothing.

After all this time

2010-10-31T22:53:00.001+08:00

"After all this time?"

"Always."

Always isn't merely a noun.

Hang on, good apples.

2010-10-31T02:08:00.002+08:00

Girls are like

apples on trees. The best

ones are at the top of the tree.

The boys don't want to reach for

the good ones because they are afraid

of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they

just get the rotten apples from the ground

that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples

at the top think something is wrong with

them, when in reality, they're amazing.

They just have to wait for the right

boy to come along, the one

who's brave enough

to climb

all the way

to the top

of the tree.

Me and him

2010-10-30T14:55:00.000+08:00

graduate?

2010-10-18T00:24:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow's graduation day. I'm feelin' a little apprehensive. Everybody's making such a huge deal about it. To be honest, i'll be glad to graduate, to be away from all that shit. Whether it be glory or shame, it's a chapter finished and it's time to flip the page.

I wasn't a huge fan of my secondary school.

There were certainly fun times worth reminiscing but not all memories sign happiness. There’s this bucket of failures that everyone will encounter in their sec school life. It’s kind of dark and it’s just something I won’t pick up the courage to touch if I was given a chance.

Truth is I was dying to be away from my school. There were many reasons: people, teachers, memories, responsibility.

It is true that we will drift apart from our classmates and close friends but if you make a point to maintain the friendship, it’s not hard to keep this relationship going. After all, like what my sec1 teacher once said, you keep the friends you make at your secondary school the longest.

I do and i will miss everything about school. I miss rolling eyes at unreasonable teachers, I miss bitching about that girl who talks too much, I miss laughing in the canteen, I miss complaining about how much homework are stressing me out.

But i still love the fact that i can finally leave all of my regrets behind and move on. I had big responsibility and I had disappoint some teachers/seniors. There shouldn't be any regrets in life but i'm not that great to not make regrets. I live, I regret, regretting is a part of life. It's weird for someone to not experience any regrets ever. It is unreal. It isn't life. Life was never so kind.

I'm apprehensive as i said. I know i would be sad but i'm actually happy that i'm moving on. This mixed feelings is confusing me.

Anws, i dunno why i sound so emo but yeah that's really how i feel towards graduation.

(Aiyo, i'm supposed to sound cheerful 'cos that's how i feel when i chat with eleanor)

My friends are perfect. They made me experience the tolls of teenage years hahahaaah.

They taught me many things and my sec school life would be unbearable if it wasn't for them. Sure, there's always tiffs between friends. But what matters is making out who your true friends are, and keep them.

But prss will always be rooted in my heart.

ps/ sorry for the no link pics, i wanted to find pictures of us in uniforms but kinda fail hahaha.

Bye people :)
And the pig that's sleeping urgh. :S

Bby's windsurfing!

2010-10-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

Btw that's not him lur duh.

~~Some asshole~~ Darling boy went windsurfing today.

I have to remember today so i'll write it down. Too lazy and busy for slow diary writing.

So windsurfing wasn't as much fun as i thought it was... Or someone didn't have talent for descriptive story telling i guess. I think the most interesting part was him being late and made the school bus wait for him hahahahahaa i'll forever remember this, blur king! His friend was texting me 'Oh he finally reached!!' haha so funny ^^

Then while i was doing history in school, he's sleeping soundly on bus otw to ecp. WHAT? pig. Yeah.

They went east coast park for windsurfing today while poor kids like us have to struggle for the major exam that's coming in a week's time :/ How unfair!

I guess it's fun lur. I wanna try it, it's stunning when you see people flipping and all on teevee. Heheh. It's okay i'm gonna go to the maldives anws. Maldives wait for me! Don't sink yet! Luv you k! :3

So anyways, someone got stung by jellyfishes. :C

GO AWAY LUH STUPID JELLYFISH, STING MY BOYF. :/

Urgh. Super angry at the stupid jellyfish. I was falling asleep and when he told me about it, i jolted awake. But i didn't know there's jellyfish in s'pore. Miss jennifer, who's my pri sch tuition teacher told us once that her boyf and her were on a trip and encountered stings by jellyfishes and guess what their trainer asked them to do? Pee on each other's hand hahahaha. Okay i guess that works? But it's kinda gross hahahaah.

But still, STUPID JELLYFISH I HATE YOU :(

And also... I don't really like today... I wasn't as cheerful. Idk why.

The only comforting thing was that someone promised to bring me to play dolphins and windsurf after Os! <3

(not forgetting another universal studio trip ^^)

Oh btw did i blogged about the awesome universal studio trip my awesome awesome boyf sponsored me for? Oh but that's another story to be continued. Suspending uh ;)

Awesome \m/

Shall end off now. Goodbye humans :)

ps/ Looking forward to a possible movie getaway with sisters (before Os how cool is that!)

Which means... I have to study extra hard to cover that few hours in theater. Hmmm, not cool. Okay.

Bye. Bye. Have Fate Ride See ;P

Documented hehhehhe :-*

Calling out :/

2010-10-13T11:14:00.000+08:00

You know it's love when you can spend forever in his cuddly hugs and you love them.

Ever been in that situation whereby someone who's far away calling out to you and however you turn around you can't find him/her?

That feeling is friggin' annoying! I always feel so silly when i'm turning here and there trying to spot the person calling out to me. It is sooooooooooo... Yeah It's sweet when you see that it's a long lost friend or somebody in school you rarely talk to normally. But before the sweetness i'll be feeling silly all over. That, is the beforemath. THE awesome Cindddaaaay invented that word. (beforemath) HAHAHA. :O

If you could possibly come nearer and call out to me, i'll very much appreciate it. Thanks :>

If not, make sure you wave your hands like you're drowning to make sure i see you!

Tyvm. *smiles hard*

LOL, i know i should feel glad that people even remember me and even bother to say hi to me on the streets. Too many demands. *guilty look*

*Shrugs*

I'm demanding. I admit. Yay ^^v

Okay done. Bye people. Another entry coming up gotta read it. 'Cos it's about my awesome boyf. <3

Urgh baby i hate my dad :C

:'(

2010-10-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

:'(

You never know when you're creating memory.

2010-10-08T11:49:00.000+08:00

You know, you never know when you're creating memory.

Hi Earthlings!

I'm feeling on the extreme ends today :S

I feel both stressed up and chirpy today hahaha i have no idea why.

Actually i think my birthday presents cheered me up ^^v

It's weird but i'll smile every time i look at them.

*look*

*smile*

*HEHEHEHHEHEHE ^^*

I'm officially 16th already. Sweeeeeet. Oh manxzs i can't i'm fifteen! Anymore :(

And i found out i got the same birthday as Confucius. 3rd Oct. Isit? My friend told me idk if it's true.

Awww i luv looking at my prezzies.

Especially the cute photobook with lotsa our pictures that my boyf gave me hahahaha.

Sorry i zhong se qing you :/

I luv all my presents k (: Really! cross heart! Even a simple 'happy birthday' message. And cards, i luv cards. Cards are awesomeeeeee \m/. Actually i don't need too much presents. Cards with sincerely written words touched me the most ;)

But erhemhem, presents surely do comfort my materialistic tendencies :P

But simple ones will do lur don't need to spend so much ^^

But...

Sorry pig, you're the only exception.

Mwahahhahaha. Thank you thank you *bow*

I was telling marj i feel happier for my birthday this year as compared to previous, and through all my 4 years in sec school. Actually, i don't really remember how i spend my sec1 and sec2's birthday already... But i will remember this year's hahaha. For one month i've been telling people "i don't think anyone will remember my birthday 'cos it's so near the Os" when they ask how i'm gonna celebrate my birthday. But somewhere deep down, in the pit of my stomach, i do hope that someone would remember, and do something for me, maybe a small card, a hug, a text, sometimes things as insignificant and as simple as a meal would create everlasting memory. You know you never know when you're creating memory.

Okay i've said too much, it's way past my 3mins max. Yeahhhhh, i still remember what i said about i will only spend 3mins max on the computer everyday haha.

The day's are nearing, countdown starts, everyone's stretching to their limit.

I'm scared, i'm awfully scared. Even though i'm still very chirpy :3

I'm so stressed up manxzsss this is so messed up.

*pulls hair*

*calm down*

Okay, bye earthlings,

this is a very stressed period, students are taking their eoys, promos, nlevels, olevels... and the list goes on.

Work hard for your paper everyone, the last bend, the last lap. :)

ps/ i got a hamster for my birthday by sisters! <3

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :(

Heehheh the photobook ^^

:(

2010-10-02T17:00:00.000+08:00

These pictures of pretty girls in nice clothes cheer me up haha :/

My sis's psle is coming in 3 days. Nlevels are starting/started? AHHHH my Os in like 25 days or so??!? IT ISN'T COMFORITNG AT ALL. Adilah put a note of 18more days on her phone's homescreen and my heart skipped a beat when i saw it. It kind of worked. I'm so scared omggggggggggg. hhahahahha i got poor time management and stress management. My grandpa just asked me what school i'm going today, again.

My grandma said hwachong lur like your aunt. @!^#!^@%#* And my grandpa's very please with her answer. So now i know that i'm bound to disappoint them, even before i start taking my exam. What the...

Urgh headache :/

i miss co :O

2010-09-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

Work of yours truly, a year ago.

OMG SERIOUSLY I DID THIS! I DON'T REMEMBER I DID THAT AT ALL! HAHAHA STM. Okay it's kinda embarrassing 'cos it's really ugly and all and wthhh green??! Urgh. But seriously, i missssss CO during syf year. I don't know why yeah. Hmmmmm kinda weird that i'll miss CO. But yeahhhhhh i miss CO, i miss the late night practices when everyone's dead beat and praying that syf be over soon. I miss the whole lot of us waiting eagerly for the results. Actually i still can't get over the fact that xin's school CO was better than ours. Hmph. Okay lur at least we maintained out gwh. I hope the following batch can continue to do our school proud (:

Actually i wanted to find a picture of my clique and a picture of Ele and a picture of my classmates when i chanced upon it in my messy folders. Actually what i wanted to say is i miss school. yeahhhhh. URGHHHH super boring at home. I hate how i have to sleep after medication, which equals to less studying time, which adds on to my stress level. !*#!@ At least i still feel like i'm learning in school. Urgh. It'll be better if pig was here with me. But he's not so yeah home's boring cause i banned myself from facebook and limited time for blogsurfing and the remaining time i slept it off.

I need a hug, like right now :(

Btw, stupid immune system can you get a hold on yourself? -.- Os coming wth!

I hate being ticked off by kk.

Pigggggggggg i neeeddddd hugggggggggg. hughughughughug! HUG! :(

imy ele!

2010-09-28T18:06:00.002+08:00

Oh manxzssssssss i hate thissssss. I feel so stresssssupppp.

Peeka-boo!

I believe that everyone should be told that they're beautiful until they believe it themselves. Thus, i texted 'you're beautiful' to 5 people. Guess what, 4/5 asked me if there's something wrong with me hahahaha am i so mean normally? Eleanor replied is that sarcasm or what? Marj said you sick till very jialat hor say i beautiful, are you okay? 'Cos i'm sick. Novy replied Cindy are you okay? :O Jiaying asked me if i'm too bored and if i'm kidding and said that i'm lame!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the last one? She haven't replied. Wth manxzs haahahha. You guys are... hahahaha okay your crack me up. But jiaying you're so mean hmph :<

Hahha okay lur 'cos i'm too random i think?

GAHHHHH I'M LIKE DAMN STRESS... SOMEONE HELP ME. :<

Fleabag vs. Mutt!

2010-09-26T00:29:00.001+08:00

Does anyone remember this?????

Another of my favourite game when i was young. Sis suddenly though of it while we were chatting and she went to search for it. Surprisingly it was still available! Anyone played before? It's damn fun i swear. Especially if you're the dog. 'Cos the cat is a bitch. Okay lur i mean the cat looks bitchy. And the dog looks damn cute when it's hit by the cat. The dog (Mutt) throws the bone at the cat (Fleabag) which throws back a can from the bin beside her. I have no idea why it's a her, maybe 'cos she looks damnnnnnnnnnnnn urghhhh. Seriously i feel like smacking her when she goes 'wakaka' when she won. Even if i'm the player for the cat. It's like super fun lur! Try it try it try it if you haven't! ^^

Anws, went to study with lili today and went East Coast Park afterwards to take pictures for her Art. She needed the back of a girl looking at the sunset. She pictured it to be a huge round sun with half of it sinking into the horizon and i was like, where to find such sun in singapore?! She just insisted there was and we went all the way there for her first-hand-photos. It's 7:06 when we reached there, and there wasn't any sun. So we just took photos of the night sky, without clouds somemore hahahahaha, really first-hand manxzs LOL. It was so much fun running around and taking pictures with feelings and finding the right angles and all. So much fun. We tried to take picture of our hair swishing and all and we found out that she's a very bad photographer. Hmm. Her 10yearold neighbour tagged along too and i find her really pretty and classy, although she don't act like a classy girl. She's tan but with her sparkling eyes and delicate features, she really look like a model-to-be. And lili's really awful to her. :( I cannot bear to have the heart to reject anything she wants, although she is kind of irritating at times. LILI IS REALLY MEAN TO CHILDREN. D: her neighbour's like a girl who looks upon lili like an idol, a sis, someone close and important and lili treats her like a sidekick. Awful her. Hmph.

Oh and before i forgot, we passed the old school today on the way to ECP and we realised that it was given a new coat of paint. Then all the ghost related rumours came back to us and we started talking about it and it hit us that the old school is realllllyyyyy freakkkkyyyy, i swear... Maybe if i have time i'll write about it again. There's just too many stories in the school. Okay noooooo i'm kinda scared already. Bye to this topic.

And my tuition gave me the look of 'oh okay *turns away*' when i told him i got a C5 for math today. *Big sigh* I gotta work hard work hard work hard! We went pass my dream school today and lili went 'see? My future school.' Yeah, it's my dream too. Even though the school looks really tattered and torn from the outside hahaha! :O WORK HARD CINDY. WORK HARD.

Bye Earthlings and ... erhem, friends who's not from the mortal world.

Goodnight. :)

SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP. URGH. :/

Everytime i see you :)

2010-09-25T09:36:00.001+08:00

I NEED TO WORK!!!!!!!! jiayou babes.

:-*

Omg like so perverted. MUAHAHA. Ooops :/

Anws, i first thought that the flowers blooming in the background were popcorns :O

Then i realised they were... Okay actually i have no idea what sort of flowers they are. Hmm. Nvm, all flowers are pretty. Including the Rafflesia. Hahaha i know its weird but i think that the Rafflesia is pretty, no?

Okay maybe not totally pretty but it's kind of special. 'Cos she have those dull but bright colours and that big gaping hole in the middle which makes me feel like it came out from the wonderland in Alice And The Wonderland. Seriously, i watch all sorts of cartoons when i'm young hahaha. And i'm gonna make my child do that. Hoho.

kissing in every city

2010-09-24T01:04:00.003+08:00

I know, I know, I'm hopelessly enamored. <3

I

You'll have to bring me okay, pig?

Awwww guess who i love the most hahahahahahahahaah. Omg so shameless :(

Someone's fast asleep nowwwwww. I should go sleep now too. Tskkk but i feel so motivated to study now! I mean today, i studied yeah! I'm so proud of myself. HAHA.

I treasured spare time for the whole of schoolday today leyyy! I was studying physics. Hmmm.

Not bad right. That's cause i don't want to manage a B for my sciences. I only want 1 B.

So i'll have to work extra hard!

Btw that B above's reserved for Animation. I only got B4 for my prelims. Damn sad sia.

Even though it's kinda last minute i did put in effort. And time omg i spend so much time on my coursework with the exception of my portfolio. But whaaaaaaaaat that's like so low lur B4. Damn demoralized for animation. Alvin You, you don't work lur haha you make me feel worse.

Yeahhhhhhhyyyy work hard man cindddaaaay! Have to make your dad (Ewww..) and Mum and sis and pig and friends proud of you! Hmm my goal seem so faraway :/

Nvm Yayyyyy Xin's right believe in myself. Ha-ha-ha.

Btw,

Stupid kk :/ Urgh.

Piggggg happy sleeeeepinggg i missssss youuuuuu babbyyyyyyyy ^^

Listen to me

2010-09-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

Do as i say, now!

Fish lanterns and lion dance

2010-09-22T22:04:00.000+08:00

:) i used to have lanterns like the fish and watch dragon dance (or isit call lion dance :O) amidst a large crowd, holding tightly on to my mum's hand.

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival :)

2010-09-22T22:00:00.001+08:00

Wtf Cindy Tay stop being cliche.

Happy mid-autumn

Today's mid-autumn festival, happy mid autumn, happy having a time to have an excuse to spend time with your family or call your old grandma to wish her happy mid autumn, happy remembering the stories they tell about the jade rabbit and the pretty lady up in the moon, happy watching the candles which got lined up in the shape of a heart shining in the dark, happy carrying your fish lantern like i had and happy watching the kids running around with paper lanterns in their right hand, laughing as if nothing else matters.

They don't know, they just have no idea the problems they will face after growing up. School, interpersonal challenges, watching your friends stab you in the back, witnessing your best-friend got dumped by the jackass in the school who seemed more important than you when they're head over heels in love, bias teachers, parents, love, stress, dreams and all the small little details that make everyone have a lump in their throat.

I'm supposed to be happy today, i'm not.

09/22 sucks. :(

I got back my poa results which made me so demoralized. Oh manxzs. I gotta get into me and xin's dream school. Which is my dad's dream school. Aishhh is my dream school lurrrrrrr urgh. Only my English and Chinese's results is can see one can. And what the !@*#^!@. I did better in Animation than poa. I cannot get over my poa results even though i know it's my fault. Urgh. Just passed my Sciences too.

I'm such a loser. I should just go and die walao.

Fuck biased teachers.

Note to self, stop being so cliche. Nobody likes it.

See? i really should just go and die. -.-

Unappreciated

2010-09-22T20:48:00.005+08:00

Urgh i hate it i hate it i hate this feeling of being unappreciated. Can't everyone be kinder? Stress is not an excuse, everyone is stress. Urgh what the shitxzs man. :'(

missing half

2010-09-19T00:38:00.003+08:00

From tumblr.

She's amazing and i'm really afraid things like this will happen to me. Life is never perfect :'(

Missing half :'(

I never knew at 5 years old you could meet your soul mate. Even though we didn't know it then, we were destined to spend the rest of our lives together. I remember the first time I ever seen you, the boy who lived just three houses down. The little brown haired blue eyed boy that immediately caught my attention the second you moved in. Ever since the first moment we met we've been inseparable. It started out as being play mates, and eventually grew into the most amazing thing I could have ever experienced. I immediately had a crush on you, something about those baby blues, even then made my heart melt. But of course at 5 years old you were still at the "girls had cooties" stage. But much to my surprise only a few short weeks later you changed your mind, and wrote me a note on a piece of red construction paper. "Will you go out with me? I like your cooties". Being five years old that was pretty much a marriage proposal in my book. And that was it..from then on we fell head over heels in love with one another. We cried together, laughed together, made fun of each other, tested each other, we grew up together. Through the years to come I completely stole your heart, and you stole mine. We were best friends, lovers, worst enemies, all rolled into one. There were times I would make you so mad you could scream, and you did the same with me. We tested each other every day, just to see what our limits were. But there was one thing we both always knew..and that was we were going to spend our whole lives together. There wasn't a doubt in our minds. You were "the one". I knew no matter what happened or where life took us, you would be the one I went to bed dreaming of, and woke up in the mornings wanting right next to me. Sure we had our fall outs, sometimes even our break ups. And yes we decided to date around, see what else was out there. But none of them ever worked out, and we both knew why. Because at the end of the day the only ones we wanted to be with was each other. Nobody could make me feel the way you did. It's a feeling I can't ever explain. You made me laugh, even if I didn't want to smile. You made me feel like I could conquer the world when I was in your arms. That was my safe place, being in your arms was the only place I felt safe in the world. I remember the day you proposed to me. The sumer of 09 right after one of petty little arguments. I can't even recall what it was about, I just remember you showing up to my house, knocking on my door and when I opened it you had this look on your face I've never seen before. I wasn't sure what to make of it at first. But then you started talking..telling me all about what you wanted out of life. How you joined the army, how you wanted to live out so many of your life dreams. At first I was so confused and mad..how could you do this? Join the ARMY? Without even talking with me about it first? When I thought army the only thing I thought about was war. And war meant death in my eyes. Tears started flooding my face until you pulled me close in your arms and told me to stop crying, that you weren't finished. So I continued listening..and that's when it happened. You said you realized that your biggest life dream was to marry me. To spend your whole life with me. And that joining the army wasn't a rash decision you had made, but rather a decision you made to help better our future together. And that was it, our future was set. You had joined the army, I was about to start college, and in just a couple short years we were going to be married and start our family. What a perfect plan, right? If only it worked out that way. I'll never forget the weekend of May 14th. I had decided to go away for a weekend with my friends, for some much needed girl time. You stayed behind and did your own thing with your friends too. I packed up my bags and headed on my way, never gave a second thought to that being the last time I may ever see you again. I went to sleep early that night. During the middle of my sound sleep I kept hearing my phone ringing, I just kept ignorning it. All of a sudden I sat straight up and knew in my gut something wasn't right. I picked up my phone, it was my sister. "Hello?" "Kaylie? Something happened. You need to get home right away." "What do you mean something happened? What happened?" "Please just listen to me. Just come home." "NO! I'm not going anywhere until someone tells me what is going on, now spill!" "Derrick was in a car accident. He didn't make it Kaylie. He's gone" I immediately dropped the phone, grabbed my stomach, and fell to the ground. Car accident? Gone? Derrick? How can this be? This can't be true. There is no way Derrick is gone. God wouldn't be that cruel. He wouldn't do this to me. He wouldn't take away my whole reason for living. There must be some mistake. I don't remember what happened after that, it's a feeling I can't even explain. I don't remember from that moment on until I arrived home a few hours later. I was in shock. I couldn't believe Derrick, my life, my love, my whole world, my comfort, my best friend, my everything was gone. What was I going to do? My whole world had literally been ripped apart from me and crumbled into a million tiny pieces in a matter of seconds. For days..I felt nothing. There was just this big gaping hole inside me that couldn't be filled. I was numb. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't sit, I couldn't stand, I couldn't talk, I couldn't think. Nothing I did helped. Eventually after a couple weeks..the shock wore off. And I was forced to deal with the fact that my life, my love, my best friend really wasn't coming home to me. I can't explain that feeling you have, it's the most undescribable horrible gut wrenching terrible pain I've ever felt in my entire life. I laid in my bed for days doing nothing but crying calling his phone time after time hoping and praying he would pick up the phone. A million things ran through my head. Why him? What did I do that was so horrible I deserved this? Why did God take away my Derrick? Why, why, why? He was so young, with so many goals set for himself. We were supposed to spend the rest of our lives together, now what am I going to do without him? I don't think I will ever understand why this had to happen.. Nobody in this world can ever say they truly know how it feels unless they have been through it too. There are no words anyone can say, no actions anyone can do, and no matter how many I'm so sorry's and I'm here for you's, you get, the pain never stops. It never goes away. I've prayed to God a million times to just make this all disappear once and for all, he has yet to respond to that request. Sometimes I wonder if he ever will. Sometimes I wonder what Derrick would be doing if he were still here, where we would be, what our lives would be like right now. I talk to him every night, and I know that he hears me, but it isn't the same..

Derrick,

You have had my heart since day one. You knew how to make me laugh like noone else ever has. You were there for me through the highest and lowest points of my life. Always encouraging and supporting me through whatever decisions I made. You were my rock. The one person I ran to when I was having a bad day, or my heart was broken..and now your gone. And my heart is more broken than it's ever been before. Where do I go to now? Where do I turn? Nothing in this world makes sense to me anymore, the only thing that gives me peace is knowing that I will be with you again one day. And I can't wait for that day to come. Always and forever baby, always and forever. I pinky pinky promise.

Love always,

Kaylie

shamelessly

2010-09-19T00:13:00.000+08:00

i wanna immerse myself shamelessly in ur warmth tonight <3

cast it all behind

2010-09-18T23:51:00.000+08:00

I woke up with tear streaks on my cheeks :'(

Packing my bag and going off.

whattheeeeshit i feel like leaving home now. RIGHT NOW.

URGH. I know... who's parent's aren't irksome, they just are, if not they wouldn't be categorized as parents.

Who can i blame when i got parents who don't see in the light of their children? Or rather, bias against one of them and towards the other. Wtf.

Who hasn't experience getting irritated by their parents before? And yeah every teenage would have wished that their parents vanish right there and then. But 80% of us will regret it yeah not good...

*Sigh* What's with the rule of not being able to choose our parents? I swear i will not make my child feel like me. I've always told myself i will not repeat my parent's mistakes.

Yeahhhh. Goooood. Go Go Go Cinddddaaaaay.

By the way, i dreamt of peiqi ytd! It's so terrifying! :'( Sorry peiqi but i dreamt that you contracted a terminal disease and we were all very worried. Especially me and marj LOL idk why! We kept sobbing and sobbing and sobbing and sobbing and sobbing and... Then you *choyyyy choyy choy! touch wood!* passed away *touched wood!!!* and we da shou da ji liddat. We couldn't attend lesson and all 5 of us didn't take our Olevels. I woke up with tear streaks on my cheeks :'(
This made me realise how important you are. (: ??? right.. I know.

eeyrrrr have to get back to my books now :(
Ciao people.

babyyyyyy don't worryy about ur phoneeeee! (:

Mah fav boy ♥

2010-09-13T23:08:00.002+08:00

I can't stay mad at you too long for anything. ♥

Omg so cute right!

SO CUTE <3333

aiesh. But it's so hard to wake him up when he's in his slumber. Like hibernating leh. Pig. Seriously, pig.

Wake up and study lur you pig. Promos coming eh. Hmph.

i didn't know there was someone who's even more of a sleepyhead than me.

hehehe no wonder, i see what makes us a couple. <3

gonna get back to history now. *pouts*

Gorbachev, Stalin and Cold War.

I'm focusing on this 3 chapters (:

I think i did badly for maths today and my mood is greatly affected. Kk was standing by me today when i was drawing my arc. Guess what, i drew wrongly, right in front of him. Fml.

Focus manxzs urgh i can't concentrate on history now ahhhhhhhhhhhh :(

Okay okay jiayou cindy you can...??

Nvm. Smile, me! (:
omg omg my 15mins is up one more min! Bye world!

Urghhh ni shuo wo luo suo :( ni zhe zhi zhu :/

work hard and taste the sweet ending

2010-09-12T21:41:00.008+08:00

I always think about this. So whenever i want to say something important to someone - I'll say it. Forget about the politics, the past or any errors.

Always in my head

Today's the last day of the September holiday. Hasn't been much of a holiday for some but it definitely was holiday for me. I've been slacking like nobody's business this week, apart for a few hours of slight mugging. There's still 40plus days left to the official start of Olevel. Well, there's terrifying. There's only 900 or so hours left to cramp everything i've learnt in class into my head. And i haven't even less away the time for sleeping/eating/bathing. I'm stress. I know that. But it's my nature to procrastinate. Yeahhhh. So i've decided. Today shall be the last day that i'll be so sluggish!

Every day, from today's midnight onwards, shall be no life for me :( Yeahhhh that's the price i'll have to pay for attaining my dreams. Ouch. No more facebook (i've just removed it from my bookmark bar so i won't instinctively click on it every time i open my Google Chrome.) and only 15mins and less shall be allocated for looking at blogs/tumblrs. Omg isn't that a wee bit too cruel? *inserts mega sad face*

I just posted this on fb :(

bye people, bye facebook, till the end of Olevels. :(

This shall be my vow for the world.

Baby's promos are coming. It sucks big time for the fact that he's in hcjc. Can't he be more normal?! Seriously, that school is a major crack in the head oops hahaha. :/

Okay i shouldn't be rude. But all the hc guys don't have time for their gfs that's a fact. Right jy? She'll so agree with me. Jiayou loverboy♥ ! No meetups on tues already yeah? :(

Concentrate now! Put your soul into it and make me proud :D

One month left for you.

Great! I'm gonna get back to my work now. I'm awfully good today. I mean, now. HAHA.

Hopefully when 2011 comes, i'll be able to announce with ecstasy that i've gotten a place in my preferred school. (:

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I almost forgot about my sis! Mei you got one month left to your PSLE too! Work hard k and don't make any silly mistakes like your sister did :/ Congrats on the passing of dsa to chungcheng main. But don't let that deter you from doing well for PSLE. Show your full potential girl, you've always been smarter than me (;

Bye for now world.

I wasn't really good in the day by fooling around when you were trying to concentrate on your chemistry sorry babyboy! But i'm studying now already hehehe! Jiayou too pig! <3

Day 08.

2010-09-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

Like every other girl, the idea of love was once incredibly foreign to me.

I'm ready, not.

Day 08: Three bad habits

1) Losing my temper easily

2) Feeling insecured

3) Sitting in a ungirly manner at home/in close friend's/boyf's presence

Hurhur. Hey guysss. I'm very stress now haha. I know it's my fault cause i'm practically slacking for the whole week of the september holidays *inserts guilty look*

What happened to me haha, slacking during the last lap. There's no more energy left in me i guess. Working hard have been taking its toll on me. Okay maybe i've not been working extremely 100% hard but at least there's a 70%-90% range depending on which test is coming. This doesn't sound correct. This sounds like i'm blaming the previous test and all but nooooooooo, conclusion: it's entirely my fault.

HEHE OKAY I'M NOW VERY GUILTY.

I'm gonna go do some maths now :) Yep, in the wee hours of the night. Shows how guilty i am hur? I'm in need of a hole manxzs.

Btw, i love my bestf hahahha. Yeahhh \m/

She's so cute i wanna kiss her oops. Hi darling pig i know you'll be reading this hahaha i love you too *kiss*

i thought she was angry at me or someth a couple of days ago but turns out she's not. Yayyy she's just acting differently to me cause i'm special haha okay that's my own inference. I was so crazzzy that day i shouted i love you from a traffic light and a road away to her. Everyone was staring at me but i didn't bothered at all i don't know what got into me. Aww then she started sending sweet texts to me. Oh wait. Is she jealous? HAHAH aiyo Eleanor's such a lovely girl.

Btw poor tired and sick pig take care of yourself pooo-lease. Thanks :( Sleep early don't stay up late anymore. Especially if you have fencing training in the morning. Btw people who are reading this don't join fencing as your cca fencing kills hahahahaha. Especially if you're the captain or something *glares at pig* you won't have time left for your girlf/boyf. So bottom line: don't join fencing. Even though it's cool to fence and watch and poke their weapon around and all. Oh yeah and especially if you're in some topnotch school and theoretically you will already be spending lesser time with your lover cause all nerds have to do is study. Ooops HAHAHAHHAHA okay i'll stop it. I'm just thinking it's a good time to speak bad about pig and fencing cause he's sleeping MUAHAHHAHA! :P

Okay i'm gonna be a good girl now daddy's nagging.

Goodnight Earthlings! (and Vs)

hi pig i don't like it when you go off alone, but it's okay 'cos i know how tired you are :) Sweet dreams!

Day 07.

2010-09-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

It really pains me to know that my sis is building walls to keep me out,
walls only her friends can climb over.

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

1) Smokers/smoking

2) Black face

3) Swearing in the face of everyone

4) A bigot who's a fan for his decisions/opinions

Done! I'm quick yayyyyyy! But seriously, things mentioned above really turns me off. -.-

Oh and i think i finished this one in like, 2mins. HOHO yay.

ps/ pig please take care of your health :(

And yayyyyyzz we luv each other more nowwww!

imagine

2010-09-07T19:38:00.000+08:00

"This could be good. It's already better than that."

i cannot emphasis this enough.
Baby, we both have our flaws and we know it. We'll work on it together i'm sure of it.
Thanks for being the best boy around ♥

no second person

2010-09-06T23:29:00.001+08:00

"When you know, you know, there's no second person that matters more."

Aww marj!

So sweet you, be it on your blog or face to face.
study hard girl! HAHA btw tell mr wong you've completed AS on wed! :D
And don't be rude to your mummy already luh auntie.
Don't make her cry already yeahh? Make up to her be brave where's your roar! Poonsterize your parents and dictate them :P omg wait no i'm teaching you the wrong stuffs again :/
nvmmmm just be a good girl (:
ps/ that pic of me in your blog sucks shoes!!

Superman much :/

Day 06.

2010-09-06T22:40:00.002+08:00

And the night sky through my window looks the same tonight as it did the
night you had your arms around me.

Hi, pillar of support (:

Day 06. Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

1) Pig

2) Mum

3) Second sis

3) Small sis

4) Yeye

5) Waipo

Ooops no order uh :S

HAHAHA Ele you're kicked out of top5 haha nvm it's okay you're still 6 (:

aiyo so zhong se qing you :/
nvm i thought every girl's like that agree?

Day 05.

2010-09-05T11:39:00.001+08:00

Someday i'll travel around the world.

I've almost forgot about this thing! HAHAHA i'm sucha forgetful girl :/

Anws,

Day 05. Six things that you wish you'd never done.

1) Said something hurtful to someone

2) To relent when dad says he's gonna send my first dog away 'cos of the birth of my youngest sister.

3) To not fight for it enough when button's being send away.

4) Crying over someone not worth my tears

5) Look into my sister's contact list and realise that her friends are more important than me.

6) Disappoint and quarrel with pig :(

That's it.

Yay i've completed my day 05! Hmm mmm btw i've created a tumblr but idk why blogger still suits me better (:

I really regret everytime we fought :(

Still mulling over it

2010-09-03T22:23:00.000+08:00

:'(

Do animals make you think?

Animals always make me suspect if they can understand our language and tell them all in a different way-in a different language... In their language.

It's a pity we cannot understand what they're yakking about hah.

How wonderful it would be if we can? Oh no no no the world will be very noisy :/

We can barely hear our own thoughts if we can understand them 'cos we'll be eavesdropping on them for juicy gossips :P

But anyways, the picture above is so freaking sad :(((((((((((

You see my point?!

Life is fragile so treasure it well!

Well it rhymes some more!

Btw today's officially the start of one week's worth of ~~holiday yay~~ full-gear-work boo.

i wasn't concentrating for my hcl paper at all today 'cos truthfully, i was so disappointed with myself on my drop in my standard. Writer's blocks were for English essays, never Chinese. Yet i had tons when i did my question one today. Chinese writing used to be something i look forward to. The words used to come to me so easily. You cannot imagine how upset i am with myself... I turned impatient and wanted to give up and rewrite all over, i didn't care about the grades, i care for my language. What happened? :( I've never felt like this for any Chinese paper ever. So fail manxzs me. I guess my Chinese teacher's discouragements worked on me subconsciously... Ahhhhhh i'm sucha disappointment :(

Sorry pig i disappointed you with chinese :( i didn't tell you about it 'cos i dunno how to bring it up :( How to tell you i think i fare really badly for this subj? It wasn't that bad luh. Like an average mothertongue essay lo. But aiyah you know what i mean :(

Plants vs zombies \m/

2010-09-03T15:20:00.001+08:00

The Zombies ate your brain!

Hi earthlings!

I'm with marj, ys, feli and peiqi at kfc noooooow and i'm waiting for eleanor who's lesson only ends at 4 ö

They're playing my 'plants vs zombies' game on my lappy now and i can't see my screen they're all blockinh my screen and getting oh-so-agitated. Btw plants vs zombies is really a nice game it reminds me of why humans play games in the first place-to have fun. I remembr those days when me and pig's obsessed over it. Its the first game i'm so addicted to ö

btw thanks to this game we just heard peiqi shout wtf. Classic manxzs if u know her she's the kind of girl next door who never curse or swear. Well, there's a first time to everything i guess. (:

Okay i'm now gonna get back to watch them play already wifi's using up so much of the life of my hp batt life.

Must save it to contact my dear pig later on (:

Btw, 76 24 rawwwwwkkks \m/

fluttery feeling much?

Aww

2010-09-03T01:58:00.002+08:00

Rabbit sushi hmm

Ps/ that rabbit is really cute! no?

Dear Hogwarts,

2010-09-02T01:58:00.000+08:00

"Dear Hogwarts, i'm still waiting for your letter."

Happy birthday peiqi!

2010-09-02T00:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HUMOROUS & CUUUUTE PEIQI ♥

happy teacher's day too, to all the wonderful teachers (:

Wonderful teachers only.

Trust holds an undeniable importance in everything we do, especially in relationships.

Trust, and faith. That's what keeps it going.

Cracking under the pressure

2010-08-31T22:45:00.000+08:00

Wishes don't come true.

I'm angry with you today so no secret message for you. Hmph :/

I can animate, can you?

2010-08-31T02:25:00.000+08:00

This was written last week and saved in draft.

IT'S SO FLUFFHHHEYY I'M GONNA DIE

Aww so cute. These are the cartoons that remind me Animation is still worth taking when i'm struggling and dying with it.

Anyone have any idea what trouble i've gotten in with the teacherssss *stress the sss* just b'cos of animation?

Yeah, Animation is a bitch. But i'll surely miss it after all this rattle. Animation have already became a part of my daily life.

I'll think worry about animation everyday. Yep, even mr you's saying i have an outbreak of pimples. I'll miss the lab, i'll miss the software, i'll miss my character, i'll miss typing excessively for animation one min and visiting fb/tumblr the other (slanting my monitor to a side) HAHAHA. We are all procrastinators when it come to animation, admit it people.

So many things happened yesterday, just when me and novy were talking about getting a class tee for just the animation people and flirting with the idea of wearing it for our O-level animation theory paper in the morn, the bond have to break between our class in the afternoon. I guess everything have cooled down now, although there will surely be a few who are still sore about it. Only this bitchhhh who just can't get the idea into his head that the teachers are fair to everybody. Everybody.

Start doing your work, complain king. And stop grumbling that no one teacher's helping you. Help yourself.

Fyi, i did everything myself and you know what? I'm gonna beat you in maths, just to prove you wrong. Thanks for being my motivation, revenge work better than anything else.

Whatever, if this is what friends are for. With friends like you, who needs enemies.

Even enemies wouldn't hurt like this. This burns so badly because you had a place in my heart, as someone i would invite for my wedding, as someone who will watch my children grow up, as someone who will be close to my family. You had that postion, once.

Sorry about grumbling over him :(
I promised Mr.H i won't bother about him...

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You see, why i love animation is because it made me grow out of my comfort zone and made me pro-active. Heh Sec1s, don't join the school councils already luh, join the animation team. Brings out and develop your character man, train you for the society LOL. Animation Class '10 brought me laughter and joy much more than tears and sorrow. For the conclusion, no matter what i'll still love animation, even if i'm the only one who standby this, even if animation is a total bitch.

Oh guess what? I'm gonna go do my animation now!

HA-HA-HA. Urghhh thinking of it makes me sick already. Bye Earthlings!

HELLO PORTFOLIO.

thanks for everyone who was on my side yesterday, who encouraged me and affirmed that hyk is a jerk, thanks to novy who cried w me, to adibah who send me so many messages and love, to randal and mr H who made silly faces just to make me smile, to ruhui who offered biscuits innocently (LOL), to Liting, Joleen and adilah who send me warmth by telling me you think this was all just a silly matter blown up. To Fathullah who was concerned about me even though he was somewhat not completely on my side, to Carmen who gave that look of disgust for yk (i love it), to Qam for sending a message to novy that indirectly made me felt better too, to some of the guys who acted like nothing happened, to marj for cursing yk over the phone (HAHHAHA WHAT?) and to pig for coming all over from tpy even though you're freaking tired just to be there with me. Aww pig you're the best boyf ever ♥... ... ...

And btw, no thanks to Mr A who was so irritating. HMPH. It's human nature that most people care about themselves more than others luh. Mr A... :/

I've came to accept it.